voirpoet.
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- May 14, 2024
- 15
my life could've been good if I wasn't born with the wrong brain chemistry. my anxiety, adhd, depression and probably autism ruined my life.
i do horrible in school, socially, at work every facet of life.
i've been prescribed practically every med u can think of, all i get is side effects and feeling like shit. it's starting to seem like a problem that cant be fixed because my brain just didn't develop right.
i HATE when people i know brush me off with "it will get better, you're just 18" but i've been like this since i was a kid. i seriously doubt when I'm 30 i'll magically be fixed.
my adhd makes the most normal tasks hard, and no stimulant has helped. my grades are always shit and i'll never achieve my goals if i can't even pass my fucking classes. i'm going to watch everyone graduate from college and work their dream job while i do a low paying job i hate for the rest of my life.
when a guy approaches me, i can visibly see the moment they realize i'm not normal and become disinterested . girls will just start infantilizing me. what's worse is i don't feel like i'm being weird but they clearly see something that i cant. this has been my entire life.
it was somewhat tolerable when i was growing up, but i can't live my adult life like this. i wasn't made to exist past childhood. my main thing keeping me from committing it is my mom, i'm her only child and i know how hard that'd be but i'm pretty sure she's getting disappointed and sick of me too. i'm doing her a favor atp. i'm going to do it as soon as possible when i get the resources.
i do horrible in school, socially, at work every facet of life.
i've been prescribed practically every med u can think of, all i get is side effects and feeling like shit. it's starting to seem like a problem that cant be fixed because my brain just didn't develop right.
i HATE when people i know brush me off with "it will get better, you're just 18" but i've been like this since i was a kid. i seriously doubt when I'm 30 i'll magically be fixed.
my adhd makes the most normal tasks hard, and no stimulant has helped. my grades are always shit and i'll never achieve my goals if i can't even pass my fucking classes. i'm going to watch everyone graduate from college and work their dream job while i do a low paying job i hate for the rest of my life.
when a guy approaches me, i can visibly see the moment they realize i'm not normal and become disinterested . girls will just start infantilizing me. what's worse is i don't feel like i'm being weird but they clearly see something that i cant. this has been my entire life.
it was somewhat tolerable when i was growing up, but i can't live my adult life like this. i wasn't made to exist past childhood. my main thing keeping me from committing it is my mom, i'm her only child and i know how hard that'd be but i'm pretty sure she's getting disappointed and sick of me too. i'm doing her a favor atp. i'm going to do it as soon as possible when i get the resources.
