Venting I just wanted help

[Giraffe]

I just wanted help. So I asked. I talked to my parents, I talked to a counselor. And they locked me up in a psych ward. And it was horrible.

But I got out because it was a short-term facility. I told my parents everything, and they just told me to be honest. So, I did. I was honest. And you know what? They were right about to send me back to the hospital.

I just wanted help. I wanted someone to talk to, who wont put me in a psych ward when I tell them how bad it is.

Looks like that was too much to ask for. No more honesty, I gave them a second chance and they screwed me twice. I'm doing it this year.

 

[deadbidaylight]

I feel like that was your parents way of trying to help you. I definitely don't think they meant it to be a negative experience for you. A lot of folks don't know how to deal with the threat of suicide so their first reaction would be to send you to someone who does. It came from a place of deep concern for your wellbeing.

Have you tried any form of therapy or counselling? Would you be willing to? What about trying medications?

Also, I know we're all strangers here, but would opening up here and speaking to us help at all?

 

[eattwinkiesseejesus]

The doctors are only after a paycheck, they don't actually care - unless you want to go to the psych ward you should *not* be honest with your shrink

 

[Giraffe]

I feel like that was your parents way of trying to help you. I definitely don't think they meant it to be a negative experience for you. A lot of folks don't know how to deal with the threat of suicide so their first reaction would be to send you to someone who does. It came from a place of deep concern for your wellbeing.

Have you tried any form of therapy or counselling? Would you be willing to? What about trying medications?

Also, I know we're all strangers here, but would opening up here and speaking to us help at all?

Thank you for caring, that is a very rare thing to find in humanity imo. IK they were trying to help me, but they just chose the wrong thing. I was just venting at the time I wrote this, and I'm in a weird spot where I am not depressed anymore(i'm on meds and therapy) but I still want to kill myself just because I care so little for life.
It's so weird, it's not even that I'm sad or anything, it's just that I'm bored of life and a believer in Nihilism. I want to do it just to do something interesting. And I'm not just saying this to be an edgelord, I have 100% conviction on doing it Lol

 

[deadbidaylight]

Thank you for caring, that is a very rare thing to find in humanity imo. IK they were trying to help me, but they just chose the wrong thing. I was just venting at the time I wrote this, and I'm in a weird spot where I am not depressed anymore(i'm on meds and therapy) but I still want to kill myself just because I care so little for life.
It's so weird, it's not even that I'm sad or anything, it's just that I'm bored of life and a believer in Nihilism. I want to do it just to do something interesting. And I'm not just saying this to be an edgelord, I have 100% conviction on doing it Lol

I totally understand venting, and I'm glad that you realize that your parents weren't out to get you. I've never been institutionalized before so I don't have any first hand experience of treatment. I've been in outpatient treatments for many years and I do find them helpful overall. But I also understand it's not for everyone.

I'm sad that you feel that way towards life. Life can be boring, but it can be great too. It can also be super shitty. I won't shame your decision because I'm not one to pass judgement on anyone. I respect your decision wholeheartedly, and I'll stand beside you when it's your time to go, wishing for a peaceful passage for you.