Not to have to deal with chronic nausea in various degrees of intensity that I can't predict making me cancel everything that felt like it gave me quality of life to the point I am pretty much a shut in these days. Fed up of the nausea that renders concentration close to impossible so I can't even distract consistently. I also want a way to not have existed so my suicide does not do immeasurable damage to every one I love and care about.
Alternatively I would want to be abducted by rationalist aliens that take me away from this shit hole, to a planet where you pursue passion and intellect and personal growth devoid of the arbitrary struggles born of the idiocy we impose on ourselves. Via forces of society and social pressure we have no means to drop out of and in most cases challenge for a better more fulfilling existence.