I seriously want to ctb. I can't find anyone in the partner thread that lives close by me. I'm sick of life and am trying to leave this Earth asap. Like what the hell?
Im sorry to hear that. You must be in incredible pain. I can understand that.
Do you have a plan or method in place? Or is that why you wanted a partner?
N, Sn, co poisoning, and partial hanging are really common fairly painless methods(especially N).
I myself plan to use SN or partial hanging.
I'm here if you want to talk at all. Perhaps about why you want to end it?
Best wishes in the meantime.
Ps. I don't like your username. Uselessatbest must have been a typo, surely? You should change that! ;)