I just want to say thank you for being here and understanding.

[chokingcatnip]

I've been anxious and depressed since high school.
Life has only gotten worse and worse since then.
The moments of happiness that I'm supposed to hang on for? Always fewer and farther between as time goes on.
I've had chronic back pain as well for about 4 years now.

I am constantly in mental and physical pain. The best I can ever do is distract myself from it. But then it explodes. I explode. Over and over. I'm so tired. The cycle.

Nobody in my life seems to understand how horrible it is for me like this. If they did, they'd understand. They'd let me go.

I've never been so close to the end as I am recently. It's amazing to think it could all be over soon. Just darkness. Or hell. If it's hell, that's fine. I deserve it. At least it's something new.

 

[Nolye]

I know what you mean. I, too, have been deep in depression and anxiety since I was 14. It's been fifteen years since then. I can't speak for the chronic pain, but if you need to talk to someone, we are here for you, supporting every decision you may make.

 

[_Minsk]

this place is a blessing!