I Just Want to Die

[Unattainable666]

I'm sitting here waiting to get dressed to go into the sanctuary of hell. In case you're not familiar with me, I work for lawyers who are extremely abusive and well bring back very painful memories of the way my mother treated me. I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face wishing I could have a massive heart attack and die right now. My soul is so tortured. I'm overcome with hate at some of the people I have to interact with. I've told them I have disabilities, but it just doesn't matter. They allow co-workers to mentally and emotionally abuse me. I have my method. I was supposed to go with a friend, but he went ahead of me. I'm older than most on the site, been through a lot of shit. I'm going to die soon anyway so why don't I just take myself out. It's a very peaceful method with no pain. I have no hope left. There is no one in my life who cares. I'm alone and have been for most of my life. I want out of this pain, I want to stop crying, to stop feeling. What the fuck is stopping me? Maybe when they fire me that will give me the incentive to ctb and finally be at peace and with Chris again. Fuck me I wish I had never been born. What a waste of a life.

 

[Endofit]

I am sorry life has been so painful for you. I as well think that my life has been a waste, and it hurts. But it eventually ends for all of us. Wether you decide to end it yourself or not, we will all be gone and forgotten at some point. It personally brings me a little bit of peace. This is all meaningless.

 

[Unattainable666]

I am sorry life has been so painful for you. I as well think that my life has been a waste, and it hurts. But it eventually ends for all of us. Wether you decide to end it yourself or not, we will all be gone and forgotten at some point. It personally brings me a little bit of peace. This is all meaningless.

You are so right it was 62 years of nothing but pain and tears. What a wastr

 

[Forever Sleep]

It sounds terrible to work for a law firm. A friend of mine did once and her stress levels were insane because they were just so nasty!

Of course, I believe you have every right to take yourself out of this shit show. I think we all do. Still- would you consider working for another type of firm? I imagine if you are highly skilled in admin, there must be lots of roles available. Or, do you specialise in law? Sorry for my ignorance. It sounds like being tossed into a tank full of sharks to me though! I don't see how anyone would or should be able to cope with that shit.

 

[Unattainable666]

It sounds terrible to work for a law firm. A friend of mine did once and her stress levels were insane because they were just so nasty!

Of course, I believe you have every right to take yourself out of this shit show. I think we all do. Still- would you consider working for another type of firm? I imagine if you are highly skilled in admin, there must be lots of roles available. Or, do you specialise in law? Sorry for my ignorance. It sounds like being tossed into a tank full of sharks to me though! I don't see how anyone would or should be able to cope with that shit.

I've applied to over 30 jobs in the past month with nothing. I've done this for 30 years and I'm so burned out. I just don't see any way out other than ctb

 

[Forever Sleep]

I've applied to over 30 jobs in the past month with nothing. I've done this for 30 years and I'm so burned out. I just don't see any way out other than ctb

I'm so sorry. Yes, I understand. You've given so much. What with your epic move as well. It doesn't seem fair that you haven't been rewarded for all that you've put in. I think maybe that's what I hate about life the most. You're fed all this bull shit when you're young that you just need to work hard and, things will work out. I know what you mean. I'm sick of trying too.

 

[wanttodie]

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