Venting i just want death

[unbelievablydead]

unfortunately, i don't think i'll ever have the strength to kill myself and i feel i can't put my family through this either. so, i just hope to god that i don't live very long or something bad happens to me one day not too long from now. like please, there's nothing in this world that i want more than death. i just want my peace, that's truly it.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Today might be the worst day yet. Holy shit. I thought my misery had flatlined at a level where I could fulfill obligations for the next 6 weeks or so but now I doubt it. This pitch of anguish might push me to hang myself.

 

[nintendo64]

I used to feel the same way, I'd always pray something would just kill me already. There was a chance I had cancer a few months ago, and I was visibly disappointed at the doctor's appointment when he said the scans revealed it was benign. That's part of what made me decide I have to just take things into my own hands, I can't wait around forever.

I'm sorry you're hurting, I hope you never get to the point I'm at and maybe you can find something to enjoy more about life, even if it's only to numb the pain a bit until you go.

 

[DreamsOfNothing]

unfortunately, i don't think i'll ever have the strength to kill myself and i feel i can't put my family through this either. so, i just hope to god that i don't live very long or something bad happens to me one day not too long from now. like please, there's nothing in this world that i want more than death. i just want my peace, that's truly it.

Me too, the longer I go without ctb, the more it feels like I'll never be able to do it. I just wish you could you could die peacefully in your sleep whenever you wanted. And I wish the people around us wouldn't be negatively affected either.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just want to cease existing as well, peace from this torturous, cruel existence truly is all I hope for, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[cut.isnt.my.name]

Remember you are never alone. I relate in a few things with you and often wish the same. I truly do hope though you find inner peace and what is best for you.