ShotgunShell
go kitty go kitty
- Mar 20, 2023
- 45
I'm so jealous of everyone around me. I've been going to college for almost 4 years now, and have not spoken to a single person on campus once. When I try, I'm laughed at like we're in fucking high school. I hate this fucking place and everyone in it.
I have online friends, but they've openly admitted they like others better than me and I am typically the second choice.
I'm sitting in my bed, sobbing like an unruly toddler, because I just want someone. I don't want a relationship. I don't want romance. I don't want sex. I just want someone to talk to that actually enjoys listening to me and won't get bored within a few minutes like most do.
Sorry for the small, shitty rant again. I don't know how much longer I can hold on for. I just want someone to care. I am so alone, and I don't think that's going to change before my expiration date. Not a damn person will cry when I go.
EDIT 4:54 PM: I'm sorry for the late edit- I ended up taking a nap and just woke up. I'm very grateful to everyone on this post reaching out to me. I'm sorry about the rant earlier. It felt good to get off my chest. You all are good people and I'm genuinely appreciative of everyone on this site. Forgive me if I don't reply to comments or DMs just yet, I'm still waking up from my nap but will get back with everyone soon.
I have online friends, but they've openly admitted they like others better than me and I am typically the second choice.
I'm sitting in my bed, sobbing like an unruly toddler, because I just want someone. I don't want a relationship. I don't want romance. I don't want sex. I just want someone to talk to that actually enjoys listening to me and won't get bored within a few minutes like most do.
Sorry for the small, shitty rant again. I don't know how much longer I can hold on for. I just want someone to care. I am so alone, and I don't think that's going to change before my expiration date. Not a damn person will cry when I go.
EDIT 4:54 PM: I'm sorry for the late edit- I ended up taking a nap and just woke up. I'm very grateful to everyone on this post reaching out to me. I'm sorry about the rant earlier. It felt good to get off my chest. You all are good people and I'm genuinely appreciative of everyone on this site. Forgive me if I don't reply to comments or DMs just yet, I'm still waking up from my nap but will get back with everyone soon.
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