I just turned 20, and that's how my teenage years are officially wasted, my biggest fear came to reality.

[yariousvamp]

I never traveled, i never went camping, I never celebrated Halloween, I never celebrated Christmas (only one time and we just bought a small tree with no celebration at all) i never went to a concert of my favorite artist, I never worked and earned my money, I never got high grades, I wasn't allowed to go out most of the time, especially alone, I never had a birthday party, I never dressed however I wanted, I never practiced any of my hobbies, Born and raised in poverty, never had a daughter and a father moments (divorced) just spent all my teen years, inside my house, playing games or watching YouTube, basically the stereotype of chronically online talking to people online to feel less lonely and "alive" and that's the curse of being born a woman in a third world islamic hole in north Africa in poverty to a single mom with no father figure to at least help with our poverty.

The only friend I consider as a bestfriend just came up with an excuse to not visit me in my birthday when we originally planned to spend time together, my mom doesn't even have money for a cake, and even though I never wanted to celebrate my 20s birthday, it kinda still hurt lol

What an amazing life, truly life is beautiful. What a fucking joke.

 

[daley]

Wow. I am so sorry to hear that.

I don't want to give advice, because you didn't ask for it, and my advice wouldn't be worth much anyway.

But you are very young, and can do many of the things you never did. (or is that impossible in an Islamic country)
I hope you find a way to do that.

 

[yariousvamp]

It is impossible unless I somehow move out, even though I truly believe that my chance of escaping is near 0%

 

[ForgottenAgain]

I'm so sorry, that is truly sad and unfair that you didn't get to experience so many things. There were years when I was forgotten and my birthday wasn't celebrated, nor Christmas, Easter, etc, and I remember those years to this day. If it was so painful to me, even though I was in my 20s, I can only imagine how it was for you...

I never went to an irl concert either, my first concert experience was one done in Minecraft during covid. I don't know if those things are still happening, dont know how it compares to a real concert, I assume a real one is much better.

I'm so sorry friend, no one should spend their life so alone like that...I assume the prospects of things improving are not good either..?

 

[Unspoken7612]

I don't want to invalidate the pain you are experiencing at the moment, and I realise that words of comfort will probably not ring true.

It is trite to say things like "the future can be better", but it really can. You might not have got the teenage years you wanted - and it's important to acknowledge the role that the pandemic had in that - but you can still have a good adulthood. I know it is difficult, but try to use your regrets as a motivation to do things differently now. I know that your experience is probably different to mine and there are extra cultural barriers in your way, but it's not unusual to have never had a job at your age.

 

[LapseInTime]

I'm a little older but wait - are you living my life? I can't relate to some parts, but this is very much how my life went and currently is. Do try to hang in there.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

I low-key relate to this and I'm sorry things have gone that way for you, truly. :(

 

[RoadToGehenna]

It is impossible unless I somehow move out, even though I truly believe that my chance of escaping is near 0%

Hey, I can try to help you figure out how to do it. You need yo change your environment to one where you have better opportunities and support. If you wanna talk it out, send me a PM :)

 

[Worndown]

Not everyone lives the "good" life. Globaly, most people get by the best they can. Throw in a totaitarian government and life can downright suck.
You are not alone in your complaints. Do you have any way of improving your situation? Is moving an option? Moving to a less "reverent" country?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm sorry for your suffering. Islam really has caused a lot of damage and pain. Right now I'm in saudi as I'm forced to do umrah and seeing all of these people makes me think that I'm in an insane asylum. These people are so stupidly and insanely devoted to their religion to where they'd destroy their own lives and the lives of others all for this religion. I'm sorry for how this religion as well as your unfortunate circumstances has ruined your teenage years. You really deserve better and I hate at how mean and cruel the world is to some of us

 

[yariousvamp]

You described it so well, it's truly feels like an insane asylum or in a stimulation where everyone around you is acting/an NPC like the truman show, because there's literally no fucking way an entire population acts the same, believes in the same things, including he twisted and disgusting things, but once you try to become different than them, you get harassed, bullied and treated as if you're from the moon.

It truly feels as if you're the only human in this country, surrounded by NPCs

 

[yabujin]

Not only teens but also early 20s here

 

[Aimiya]

Having bad friends/parents might be worse than having none, it restrains you so much I can't even explain... I feel you.
Celebrating holidays, going to concerts and etc is not as common as you might imagine, nor is it necessary, I can assure you what you see is just the loud minority, so don't beat yourself up because of that.
All I can say is: don't blame yourself for the actions of you made when you were young, undeveloped and vulnerable, that literally never helps.

 

[Abyssal]

Camping is overrated as hell and so is being a teenager. Welcome to the club.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Camping is overrated as hell and so is being a teenager. Welcome to the club.

Honestly, camping is only fun if you happen to be into hanging out in the outdoors. Otherwise, it's stressful and you end up coming home smelling like ass (at least in cases in which you are roughing it). It's even worse when it's a several-day camping trip that involves canoeing from campsite to campsite. While I don't regret having gotten to experience those things from back when I used to go to camp, I can't say that I miss it that much outside of maybe some of the beautiful scenery. Maybe I would have enjoyed it more if it weren't for me being terrified of insects and being horrible at canoeing and also lacking any physical strength (which made portaging fucking hell).