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idk why but i felt a bit relieved once i click submit, maybe it's because i know my end is near. it would arrive around january 7-january 9. i just need to find me some metoclopramide. i also need to plan when/ where i'll ctb.
any tips? i'm kinda new with SN
 
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goldenrods

goldenrods

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you don't necessarily need meto to have a successful attempt, but it's VERY recommended. here's some advise / what i'm planning for my SN:

1) prepare *3* glasses of SN. you're probably going to vomit even with antiemetics. after vomiting, drink another glass. even if you vomit several times, there should enough SN in your system to ctb with the sheer amount you drank

2) don't have a scale? 2 tablespoons should be around 20 g. the recommended dose is, i believe, 15 g ? unless you're on the heavier side. slowly add water - you want to use as little as possible.

3) don't want somebody you know to find your body ? book a motel/hotel. bring identification so the police can contact your family. they're going to ID you regardless, might as well make it easier on them.

4) leave notes instead of texting. if you text somebody saying concerning things they will call the police and you will be found. just leave notes instead.

5) it's not exactly painless like it's advertised. should be like a severe hangover - vomiting, shaking. crying, migraines etc. not exactly the worst, but not "passed out peacefully" either

6) READ STANS SN THREAD. memorize it.

i hope this helps !! personally i'm just going to down 3 glasses of SN in a shitty motel & hope for the best :')
 
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CrazyJason

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I ordered some Meto online today. I will be getting the SN soon too. At this point, things haven't become "bad enough" to go through with this idea... However, it's nice to be armed with the right supplies just in case I decide that I need to go at that moment (god forbid you have to use a rope). I think having the right supplies readily available reinforces your confidence in wanting to die and also makes you think twice... Like "is this really the right moment or is there something more I can do to make things better before resorting to this final option?"

Online pharmacies will fill an order for you. They'll take a pic of your face and license and some doctor will approve the order to be shipped. I paid 6 bucks for 30 10 MG. Meto pills. $15 for the "consultation," which is basically just a series of yes or no questions that you click. Order has not arrived yet, but I'm sure it will.

Total investment: $21.00

Please think twice though. I hope your New Year's Eve is going well and that you are able to step outside the frame for a minute to see things with clarity.
 
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I ordered mine too. i bought metoclopramide from ebay before when I tried to ctb with N. Unfortunately police took away my N so I have no choice but using sn. I've heard lots of failure from SN nowadays.. makes me really scared using SN. But it seems like there are no any better methods than N or SN. When my time comes, I will follow steps from ppehb guide.
 
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I ordered mine too. i bought metoclopramide from ebay before when I tried to ctb with N. Unfortunately police took away my N so I have no choice but using sn. I've heard lots of failure from SN nowadays.. makes me really scared using SN. But it seems like there are no any better methods than N or SN. When my time comes, I will follow steps from ppehb guide.

What is N? I keep seeing people talking about it.
 
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Hello & welcome, Verklempt. I'm sorry that you feel the need to be here & I hope that you've exhausted all options before you ctb. But, if that's your choice, there's plenty of information available here (Like resources page & the thread goldenrods mentioned). Personally I plan on using SN in a hotel. :heart: :hug:
4) leave notes instead of texting. if you text somebody saying concerning things they will call the police and you will be found. just leave notes instead.
If need be, you can send out delayed email/texts. I've heard talk about Gmail being capable of that but I've come across couple of different services for delayed messaging.

lots of failure from SN nowadays
"Lots"??? Really???
 
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You can find many tips here:
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-a-comprehensive-guide-including-method.25148/
 
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I ordered mine too. i bought metoclopramide from ebay before when I tried to ctb with N. Unfortunately police took away my N so I have no choice but using sn. I've heard lots of failure from SN nowadays.. makes me really scared using SN. But it seems like there are no any better methods than N or SN. When my time comes, I will follow steps from ppehb guide.
where did u get ur metoclopramide specifically? or what did u search up? i tried looking at ebay and it just shows up textbooks for it.
 
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SN is not the same as Nembutal (sodium pentobarbital)
What does CTB stand for?
Does anyone know how to obtain Nembutal (sodium pentobarbital) 20 grams powder form?
 
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SN is not the same as Nembutal (sodium pentobarbital)
What does CTB stand for?
Does anyone know how to obtain Nembutal (sodium pentobarbital) 20 grams powder form?
Ctb is another way to say suicide. and i'm not sure about the others, srry!
 
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What does CTB stand for?
Does anyone know how to obtain Nembutal (sodium pentobarbital) 20 grams powder form?
CTB = catch the bus

I don't think there's a reliable source for N powder right now.
 
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