ItsOverIsntIt
Experienced
- Sep 9, 2020
- 234
Sorry this is just going to be me venting but I really need to tell someone what just happened. I hate myself so much right now. I had an assignment for my psychology class that I thought was due today at midnight, like most of my other assignments are. I put it off because I couldnt get the motivation or energy to do it earlier in the day. But it was due at 11 pm and I missed part of it. I cant get into the board and was only able to complete part of it. when it was nearing 11 I couldnt breathe and couldnt focus on my work becuase I was so focused on the time and I didnt complete it. I didnt finish and I hate that. I feel like im goint to fail the entire class but I know thats not true and its irrational. I started crying immediately after and i couldnt breathe. I feel like a failure. I feel like i could drop out of college and waste all the money that was spent on me but i dont deserve that if i cant even get through one assignment. I hate having panic attacks and now i have scratch marks on my arms from scratching myself. I might get a bruise too becuse I started hitting myself. I hate this so much i know logically that one grade wont fail me but i feel like it will and then my parents will throw me out and i can never talk to my friends because they won't care. Im going in circles now i really hate myself and wish i could do better but thats not going to happen