S
Spyro24
Member
- Jun 24, 2022
- 68
Long story short, I met a girl with BPD online a few weeks ago and I fell in love with her. We were doing great and we even called each other. It was awesome and I couldn't have been happier.
Today she snapped and started tearing me apart. Saying I'm creepy and she wants to blow her brains out because of me. Then she told me to just forget it because she was high.
My heart is broken, I feel worthless and unwanted. I considered her my best friend, she understood me and I loved her in every way possible. At this point I feel like I'm alive just to be tortured and that I'm just not meant to ever be happy. Of course I already told my therapist about her so now in the next session, I can tell her how big of a failure I am.
I now have nothing left. No friends, no one. to talk to, ... She was the last thing keeping me on this earth and now I'm ready to go. My SN only arrives at the end of the month so now I'm desperately looking for another solution so I can end it all and preferably today.
Today she snapped and started tearing me apart. Saying I'm creepy and she wants to blow her brains out because of me. Then she told me to just forget it because she was high.
My heart is broken, I feel worthless and unwanted. I considered her my best friend, she understood me and I loved her in every way possible. At this point I feel like I'm alive just to be tortured and that I'm just not meant to ever be happy. Of course I already told my therapist about her so now in the next session, I can tell her how big of a failure I am.
I now have nothing left. No friends, no one. to talk to, ... She was the last thing keeping me on this earth and now I'm ready to go. My SN only arrives at the end of the month so now I'm desperately looking for another solution so I can end it all and preferably today.