I just feel really scared

[bunny_brownie9]

I'm sure that this is completely normal, but I just feel realty scared. Obviously the act is never going to be nice but I suppose I just worry about it being painful and what comes next… or not having everything prepared.

I have what I need (for the most part) and I feel that I have no choice, but I just have lots of anxiety. Is this normal to be feeling?

I don't want to do this anymore and have a provisional date if all goes well but maybe it's just SI kicking in.

 

[cosmic_traveler]

I'm sure that this is completely normal, but I just feel realty scared. Obviously the act is never going to be nice but I suppose I just worry about it being painful and what comes next… or not having everything prepared.

I have what I need (for the most part) and I feel that I have no choice, but I just have lots of anxiety. Is this normal to be feeling?

I don't want to do this anymore and have a provisional date if all goes well but maybe it's just SI kicking in.

If you're not sure, that's anxiety. It's okay to not be okay. Find your peace and decide from there. Nothing is "normal", that's just a label society uses. We are all weird, that's what makes us all unique. You do you.
We wish you peace. Big hugs. Be well on your journey.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's understandable having fears, it isn't like it's straightforward to cease existing on our own terms after all. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find the peace you search for.

 

[matt1968]

I'm sure that this is completely normal, but I just feel realty scared. Obviously the act is never going to be nice but I suppose I just worry about it being painful and what comes next… or not having everything prepared.

I have what I need (for the most part) and I feel that I have no choice, but I just have lots of anxiety. Is this normal to be feeling?

I don't want to do this anymore and have a provisional date if all goes well but maybe it's just SI kicking in.

Me too.

Sending you warmest wishes.

 

[everyonesaniki]

I'm in the same position and it is normal. I've only recently definitively decided to CTB and the fear of what comes after or the fear of me failing still haunts me. It's normal to be afraid of the unknown.

 

[bunny_brownie9]

If you're not sure, that's anxiety. It's okay to not be okay. Find your peace and decide from there. Nothing is "normal", that's just a label society uses. We are all weird, that's what makes us all unique. You do you.
We wish you peace. Big hugs. Be well on your journey.

absolutely. I just think too much and just need to do it

I'm in the same position and it is normal. I've only recently definitively decided to CTB and the fear of what comes after or the fear of me failing still haunts me. It's normal to be afraid of the unknown.

definitely normal but it can't be that bad I reckon it's like before you were born. Just eternal sleep and nothingness. I just wish it wasn't so hard to achieve that and not feel so guilty but ready to go

 

[UKscotty]

There will always be doubts as we just don't know what happens at the point of death.

I think if someone could give a 100% guarantee that was it, many of us would find CTB so much easier.

I am 99.9% sure we just no longer exists, but part of me wonders, what we if we wake up in judgment or our life does flash before our eyes and it feels like another life time?