I'm sorry that happened to you.
I call myself pathetic because I'm just terrified of doing anything. I just sit in a room all day, it's like I've imprisoned myself. I don't know how to get out of this
Yeah it's just one big shitty cycle.
All of us are here for a reason, don't be sorry.
Trust me, friend. I more or less do the same thing. A couple months ago, I just laid in bed, and I was content with rotting away. I still am, however, I am quite literally being forced to do stuff by those I'm living with. I want nothing more to shut myself in a room, hide from everyone in the world and responsibility that's expected out of me. I'd be so much happier not having to deal with anyone, and anything. Trust me, there's a lot who feel the same way, and feel trapped. You aren't alone in your pain, I'm sorry you are going through this.