Discussion I just feel mad now

[Bookscover]

I can't stand it anymore. I can't stand behaving. The world has been so fucking shit towards me I feel like making it shit for the world. There's some people I just hate so fucking much I wanna torture them to death. They deserve it so bad but I knew that if I did it everyone would go against me.

Cause that's how it is. Being a bully makes everyone love you. Yes we love that dude even though he's a paedophilic sociopath who become friends with weak people so he can exploit them. Yes that guy is just so nice isn't he.

And I definitely deserve the genetics I've been given yea. No I-I mean I don't deserve it but Y'know that's just how it is you got to look at what you can change yes instead of looking at the thing that literally defines who you are and your entire life and makes people disgusted of you and makes your life miserable and makes your family abandon you and makes people bully you.

Yes that thing called genetics. You just got to forget about it man. Get a job at McDonalds instead and work there your entire life awww that sounds so good little man.

Nah. If there's no consequence I'll make it myself. I'll go and I'll kill my parents. I'll kill the bully.

Sure they can kill me idgaf I've tried it multiple times but you be my guest go ahead.

This is the last emotion I have left. Just pure anger. I just wanna fuck them up. I just wanna torture them.

 

[Manaaja]

Yeah, it's awful how school bullies are popular and loved, while shy and friendly people get all the hate. It's very immoral and wrong. It would be nice if people had moral compasses. Yeah, I hate genes. I wish people could just choose their looks like in video games.

It's absolute mind-wrecking when those evil and stupid people get good lives, spouses, kids, money etc. and bullied people get just anguish and suffering. One thing that helps me is imagining people I hate with the worst diarrhea ever. Just because they have good looks, money or social life, doesn't mean their lives aren't hard, they might have a heart condition (one of my "chad" relatives suffers from them), they are to be mindless wageslaves with no freedom, they'll have kids that keep them awake every night and puke everywhere. Even if I got to be a chad I still wouldn't want to live on this planet.

One advice that applies to everything. Don't make decisions when you are feeling really angry. It leads to rush actions.

 

[timf]

Anger and thoughts of revenge can give a person a sense of feeling in control and setting things "right". However, in reality they often work to tie us to that which is best left behind.

Given the huge number of bad people in the world, it might be better for you to find a way to leave the bully behind you and move on. To be a person like that is its own punishment.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Good timing, I got so angry just now. Went out and thought about it for a bit.

Emotions can be seen as desires. Sadness makes us want to be comforted, fear makes us want to run and hide. Anger, well anger makes us want to hurt, kill and destroy. I realized that I didn't actually wanted to destroy or hurt those people or things that triggered the anger, that the root cause of the anger was the needs that I have failed to meet. That I have failed to meet, myself. So who do I really want to kill?

 

[Bookscover]

Yeah, it's awful how school bullies are popular and loved, while shy and friendly people get all the hate. It's very immoral and wrong. It would be nice if people had moral compasses. Yeah, I hate genes. I wish people could just choose their looks like in video games.

It's absolute mind-wrecking when those evil and stupid people get good lives, spouses, kids, money etc. and bullied people get just anguish and suffering. One thing that helps me is imagining people I hate with the worst diarrhea ever. Just because they have good looks, money or social life, doesn't mean their lives aren't hard, they might have a heart condition (one of my "chad" relatives suffers from them), they are to be mindless wageslaves with no freedom, they'll have kids that keep them awake every night and puke everywhere. Even if I got to be a chad I still wouldn't want to live on this planet.

One advice that applies to everything. Don't make decisions when you are feeling really angry. It leads to rush actions.

It's not a school bully. It's the dude I called my best friend.

Thank you man that actually helped. Worst thing is that this guy is really high ranking in the military and he's prepared for me to come because he's a paranoid son of a bitch who knows exactly what he has done. But I'm not kill him. He's told me he wants me to commit suicide and he's told me he would co operate in my suicide if I wished, but that's just him trying to hurt me. He's too much of a pussy to do it for real. The bitch thinks I still get hurt by his words HA!

Anger and thoughts of revenge can give a person a sense of feeling in control and setting things "right". However, in reality they often work to tie us to that which is best left behind.

Given the huge number of bad people in the world, it might be better for you to find a way to leave the bully behind you and move on. To be a person like that is its own punishment.

Yeah that's what I do. It's just that I've been betrayed so many times by so many people. It makes me hate humanity. Very often makes me feel like I'm dead and this is just my brain continuing my life.

 

[Manaaja]

It's not a school bully. It's the dude I called my best friend.

Thank you man that actually helped. Worst thing is that this guy is really high ranking in the military and he's prepared for me to come because he's a paranoid son of a bitch who knows exactly what he has done. But I'm not kill him. He's told me he wants me to commit suicide and he's told me he would co operate in my suicide if I wished, but that's just him trying to hurt me. He's too much of a pussy to do it for real. The bitch thinks I still get hurt by his words HA!

Yeah that's what I do. It's just that I've been betrayed so many times by so many people. It makes me hate humanity. Very often makes me feel like I'm dead and this is just my brain continuing my life.

I'm sorry that your best friend turned against you. This year a close friend of mine turned against me. It's like the better his life became the worse he treated me. So I'm not friends with him anymore. It's so strange and terrible how good friends can become bad people.

That diarrhea really helps. Find a photo of him and copy paste on some dude who is covered in diarrhea. I've never done it but I'd expect it to feel even better. It's sad that bullies can get high ranks. What a shithead. I suggest you cut him off of your life permanently. He is pretty pathetic if he has nothing better to do than bully others.

So many humans can be nice at first and then cruel. It's awful. Being dead and brain continuing life is exactly how I feel too. Today I was self-studying art for hours not thinking anything until I had to go hang the laundry and while hanging it it's like I was a robot who was turned on and I suddenly wondered what the hell am I doing, studying so just I can get a job, even though I don't even want to work. I love art, but I don't want my life to be about making art for living. It was like I just turned off my brain and started painting to escape from my problems.

 

[Bookscover]

I'm sorry that your best friend turned against you. This year a close friend of mine turned against me. It's like the better his life became the worse he treated me. So I'm not friends with him anymore. It's so strange and terrible how good friends can become bad people.

That diarrhea really helps. Find a photo of him and copy paste on some dude who is covered in diarrhea. I've never done it but I'd expect it to feel even better. It's sad that bullies can get high ranks. What a shithead. I suggest you cut him off of your life permanently. He is pretty pathetic if he has nothing better to do than bully others.

So many humans can be nice at first and then cruel. It's awful. Being dead and brain continuing life is exactly how I feel too. Today I was self-studying art for hours not thinking anything until I had to go hang the laundry and while hanging it it's like I was a robot who was turned on and I suddenly wondered what the hell am I doing, studying so just I can get a job, even though I don't even want to work. I love art, but I don't want my life to be about making art for living. It was like I just turned off my brain and started painting to escape from my problems.

It's the exact same for me man. He got a girlfriend and just completely changed as a person. He used to be a dick but it just became extreme. He was taking out his anger and sadness in his relationship on me.

In the end I couldn't take it anymore. I started treating him like shit and that's when he blocked me. I don't want anything to do with him. I just hope he doesn't decide to talk to me after a breakup or some stupid shit. I could imagine him coming here and shooting up my entire apartment if he was mad enough.

Good timing, I got so angry just now. Went out and thought about it for a bit.

Emotions can be seen as desires. Sadness makes us want to be comforted, fear makes us want to run and hide. Anger, well anger makes us want to hurt, kill and destroy. I realized that I didn't actually wanted to destroy or hurt those people or things that triggered the anger, that the root cause of the anger was the needs that I have failed to meet. That I have failed to meet, myself. So who do I really want to kill?

You want to kill time?

 

[stellabelle]

I can't stand it anymore. I can't stand behaving. The world has been so fucking shit towards me I feel like making it shit for the world. There's some people I just hate so fucking much I wanna torture them to death. They deserve it so bad but I knew that if I did it everyone would go against me.

Cause that's how it is. Being a bully makes everyone love you. Yes we love that dude even though he's a paedophilic sociopath who become friends with weak people so he can exploit them. Yes that guy is just so nice isn't he.

And I definitely deserve the genetics I've been given yea. No I-I mean I don't deserve it but Y'know that's just how it is you got to look at what you can change yes instead of looking at the thing that literally defines who you are and your entire life and makes people disgusted of you and makes your life miserable and makes your family abandon you and makes people bully you.

Yes that thing called genetics. You just got to forget about it man. Get a job at McDonalds instead and work there your entire life awww that sounds so good little man.

Nah. If there's no consequence I'll make it myself. I'll go and I'll kill my parents. I'll kill the bully.

Sure they can kill me idgaf I've tried it multiple times but you be my guest go ahead.

This is the last emotion I have left. Just pure anger. I just wanna fuck them up. I just wanna torture them.

I feel this way too much.