Venting i just don't understand how people have the energy to keep going

[thecoldest]

most of the time i am so exhausted. basic things like hygiene seem to be too much. every day we have to get up, and eat, and do something to not go insane and i just don't understand how some people do with such ease. for example, i look at my mom and can't imagine being in her shoes. maybe i think this way because i am not currently working, only studying, but it makes me thing if when the day where i have to work finally comes, will i really have the energy for it? we have to live, make money just to keep existing and it's so tiring. well, i am alive too and i keep living day by day, but i do it in a half-assed way. i wanted to have the motivation, you know?
i'm sleepy most of the times too and i don't have any health conditions or stuff like that for that to happen, i just am tired all of the time, and i am tired of being tired. these days i wrote two short stories and after a long time i felt alive, by doing somethig i like, but i can't write all of the time (even if i wanted that to be possible). i don't know, i guess this is just a vent and something that someone probably already discussed here, so sorry if it seems repetitive, i just wanted to share this feeling somewhere. if you feel the same way please leave a comment, i would like to interact with more people! :)

 

[overmorrow]

they are delusional, and scared of death, that's why, sometimes being that afraid will force you, to go forward, they don't live for the experience, they live for the dopamine obtained through the hard obstacles you encounter everyday

 

[thecoldest]

they are delusional, and scared of death, that's why, sometimes being that afraid will force you, to go forward, they don't live for the experience, they live for the dopamine obtained through the hard obstacles you encounter everyday

ah, i wish i were afraid too then... but i guess i can kind of understand it, not feeling that dopamine is hell, i can say that because i definitely don't feel it myself. still seems a bit paradoxical to live that way hehehe.
thanks for the reply!

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's definitely something I wonder about. Do those people all find it easy? Where do I sit on the scale of finding it difficult? When is it so difficult we can be justified in claiming it's something we 'can't' do?

For me personally, it's varied quite a bit in life. I worked in retail for ten years. Mostly part time to be fair. But, I hated that. It used to feel agonising going in to work, and being at work. It was such a struggle. I'm not certain I was ever really enthusiastic about going in to a work place. Even when I started doing jobs I at least had more interest in.

For me, it was having a very strong work ethic grilled into me. Plus, this pressure that I musn't become a financial burden on my parents. The shit I'd get from that felt worse than complying I suppose. I wouldn't assume people find it easy though. It's just that the alternative might seem even worse!

Now though, I've been freelance and worked from home for many years. A couple of years back, it looked like I would need other work to supplement myself once more and, it was predictably horrendous to be in a new environment again, having to work with others and learning new skills.

It's a massive dread for me now- that I may need to return to that some day. As it is- I at least get to manage my time. So long as I reach my deadlines, I'm ok.

Even 'normies' can struggle and vary in their compliance though. Someone I worked with once was normally fairly upbeat but, they would often struggle returning from a holiday to settle back down. I know loads of people who are/ were massively dissatisfied with work. One in three at my friend's workplace were on anti-depressants!

It likely depends somewhat- how much pressure they are under to support themselves. I'm not sure people find it easy though.