I am miserable, I hate my life, I have a new job that I despise, waking up gets harder every day.
I tried getting back to my old job that I loved except for one colleague and now she is the reason they won't take me back.
That was the one thing I saw that could give me back some will to live maybe. Well now it's over, I'm stuck and I just don't want this anymore. I also feel like I owe it to the people that care about me to stay but what good am I to them when I just hate everything. I just wish everything would have been different, I just wish I wasn't me, I cannot take it anymore. I want to talk about it to someone but it's impossible. I have no will left to try to change things, everything I've changed in the past just made it worse. I just don't see a future for myself anymore, how could it ever get better?
I tried getting back to my old job that I loved except for one colleague and now she is the reason they won't take me back.
That was the one thing I saw that could give me back some will to live maybe. Well now it's over, I'm stuck and I just don't want this anymore. I also feel like I owe it to the people that care about me to stay but what good am I to them when I just hate everything. I just wish everything would have been different, I just wish I wasn't me, I cannot take it anymore. I want to talk about it to someone but it's impossible. I have no will left to try to change things, everything I've changed in the past just made it worse. I just don't see a future for myself anymore, how could it ever get better?
