Now_And_Then
If I am no good , then let me out
- Jun 30, 2019
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I was going to write this in the recovery thread , but I changed my mind and decided to put it here
I have just been laying down and thinking and thought of scenarios of where I had more money , confidence and actually got my mind and life in better order , became some one worth it , et c
I imagined I was that person and then the world in my head showed it's true colours to me .... I could sense and see all the nastiness and poison and realised for the final time that this world is not worth me doing that for
I do not want to recover in a half arsed world full of evil and poison . Why should I ? You tell me . You give me a good reason
If some people want to roll with the punches just to get a few lovely things out of life , then that is THEIR choice . But I do not see why I have to
Thank you for reading
I have just been laying down and thinking and thought of scenarios of where I had more money , confidence and actually got my mind and life in better order , became some one worth it , et c
I imagined I was that person and then the world in my head showed it's true colours to me .... I could sense and see all the nastiness and poison and realised for the final time that this world is not worth me doing that for
I do not want to recover in a half arsed world full of evil and poison . Why should I ? You tell me . You give me a good reason
If some people want to roll with the punches just to get a few lovely things out of life , then that is THEIR choice . But I do not see why I have to
Thank you for reading
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