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waitingforrest
Elementalist
- Dec 27, 2021
- 842
Just venting to get some feelings out so don't feel a need to comment. And yes, it's going to be unorganized.
I made the great decision to take a walk at night with someone else, and no they weren't the ones to try and murder me.
We were still in the neighborhood when a car approached us and they started shouting obscenities at us. They stopped ahead a few meters in front of us and the two front seat passengers started getting out of their car.
So my acquaintance turned around and started to walk in the opposite direction, and I followed. The two people got back in their cars and I thought that would be the end of it, but no, they drove back toward us.
We were luck to be near a house and pretended it was our house, after a few seconds, they left. Both of us then ran back to my house after hiding in a random person's backyard.
Geez, I'm still a bit jittery and shakey from all the adrenaline. I don't know if they wanted to kill us or kidnap us but I really don't want to find out. I may want to die, but I don't want to go out being murdered or worse.
I'm just thinking a bit more on my life now, just on how dying can happen so unexpectedly at any moment. How even if I got my wish, I was still terrified of death.
I realize that I was really lucky, if we weren't near a house, things would have turned out differently. That I really should just do whatever the fuck I want until I get the courage to ctb. Because I might never know when another freak event occurs.
I may want to die, but I want it to be my choice, not someone else's.
This whole event just reminded why I am even so paranoid about other people in the first place. Why I am always vigilant.
I think I'm just going to play some video games to get my mind off things. And that concludes my vent.
And I like to thank my sponsor, Raid Shadow Legends for sponsoring this vent!
I made the great decision to take a walk at night with someone else, and no they weren't the ones to try and murder me.
We were still in the neighborhood when a car approached us and they started shouting obscenities at us. They stopped ahead a few meters in front of us and the two front seat passengers started getting out of their car.
So my acquaintance turned around and started to walk in the opposite direction, and I followed. The two people got back in their cars and I thought that would be the end of it, but no, they drove back toward us.
We were luck to be near a house and pretended it was our house, after a few seconds, they left. Both of us then ran back to my house after hiding in a random person's backyard.
Geez, I'm still a bit jittery and shakey from all the adrenaline. I don't know if they wanted to kill us or kidnap us but I really don't want to find out. I may want to die, but I don't want to go out being murdered or worse.
I'm just thinking a bit more on my life now, just on how dying can happen so unexpectedly at any moment. How even if I got my wish, I was still terrified of death.
I realize that I was really lucky, if we weren't near a house, things would have turned out differently. That I really should just do whatever the fuck I want until I get the courage to ctb. Because I might never know when another freak event occurs.
I may want to die, but I want it to be my choice, not someone else's.
This whole event just reminded why I am even so paranoid about other people in the first place. Why I am always vigilant.
I think I'm just going to play some video games to get my mind off things. And that concludes my vent.