manta
its gonna be ok
- Mar 26, 2023
- 114
Hey everyone,
This is slightly embarrassing because I made a post a few months back about getting rid of my SN which I never got around to.
A few weeks ago after a few shots of vodka I decided it was time and drove to a nearby parking lot to drink my SN. I was talking in the chat here for a bit and after mixing my drinks I laid back and listened to some music trying to gain the courage to drink. I turned into an absolute mess and couldn't really bring myself to do it which I was really upset about. After talking in the chat some more someone had told me its OK if I am not ready and only to drink if I was 100% sure. After thinking more about that I decided to pour out my SN and the next day I took myself to a mental hospital that my therapist said good things about. I didn't tell my family or friends I was going until I was done being assessed.
The experience was overwhelmingly positive. I was sedated pretty heavily the first day or so and put on new meds. Was unemployed so they applied for medicaid for me and the visit was entirely covered by it. I was terrified the first night because I have heard tons and tons of horror stories but thankfully this hospital was one of the few good ones. Got smoke breaks and made a few friends that way. Daily therapy and groups etc. Now I am doing an outpatient program where I have a few hours of therapy a day. New meds seem to be working well which is good. I am still unemployed and not in school but I am getting back on track it feels like.
I am gonna delete my account within the next few days. I feel like I am now getting better and this website is no longer needed. If you were in the chat that night, thank you. I had nobody else to talk to in that moment and your advice helped me make a decision I feel was right.
This is slightly embarrassing because I made a post a few months back about getting rid of my SN which I never got around to.
A few weeks ago after a few shots of vodka I decided it was time and drove to a nearby parking lot to drink my SN. I was talking in the chat here for a bit and after mixing my drinks I laid back and listened to some music trying to gain the courage to drink. I turned into an absolute mess and couldn't really bring myself to do it which I was really upset about. After talking in the chat some more someone had told me its OK if I am not ready and only to drink if I was 100% sure. After thinking more about that I decided to pour out my SN and the next day I took myself to a mental hospital that my therapist said good things about. I didn't tell my family or friends I was going until I was done being assessed.
The experience was overwhelmingly positive. I was sedated pretty heavily the first day or so and put on new meds. Was unemployed so they applied for medicaid for me and the visit was entirely covered by it. I was terrified the first night because I have heard tons and tons of horror stories but thankfully this hospital was one of the few good ones. Got smoke breaks and made a few friends that way. Daily therapy and groups etc. Now I am doing an outpatient program where I have a few hours of therapy a day. New meds seem to be working well which is good. I am still unemployed and not in school but I am getting back on track it feels like.
I am gonna delete my account within the next few days. I feel like I am now getting better and this website is no longer needed. If you were in the chat that night, thank you. I had nobody else to talk to in that moment and your advice helped me make a decision I feel was right.
