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DyingFlower
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- Nov 5, 2023
- 5
I'm sick of my job
I'm sick of this world
I'm sick of me
They say there's always a choice. You could go to another job,you could go to school. But I don't want to any of those things I'm not ambitious, determined or inspiring. Even when I was kid whenever we had career day I could never do the assignment. Because ultimately I knew I wouldn't do anything, I wouldn't achieve, I knew I would die an insignificant statistic. Gone too soon they say, they had so much life it live! But they will never listen they'd rather tell you that you are being dramatic or they start ranting about their own lives.
It's why I don't tell my mom how I'm really feeling, it'll quickly turn into insistent rambling about her life or things that I should be doing.
Another job would be another spiral another headache another problem. It's never ending you have to beg a shitty company to even have them think about hiring you.
They only thing I really have access to currently is bleach and I've heard of people dying from it. Though it'll be painful I don't have anything else I did want to jump but there aren't any really tall buildings or cliffs. I don't want to drink it inside my home though because the first person to find my body will be my mom then and I don't want her to witness that.
I'm sick of this world
I'm sick of me
They say there's always a choice. You could go to another job,you could go to school. But I don't want to any of those things I'm not ambitious, determined or inspiring. Even when I was kid whenever we had career day I could never do the assignment. Because ultimately I knew I wouldn't do anything, I wouldn't achieve, I knew I would die an insignificant statistic. Gone too soon they say, they had so much life it live! But they will never listen they'd rather tell you that you are being dramatic or they start ranting about their own lives.
It's why I don't tell my mom how I'm really feeling, it'll quickly turn into insistent rambling about her life or things that I should be doing.
Another job would be another spiral another headache another problem. It's never ending you have to beg a shitty company to even have them think about hiring you.
They only thing I really have access to currently is bleach and I've heard of people dying from it. Though it'll be painful I don't have anything else I did want to jump but there aren't any really tall buildings or cliffs. I don't want to drink it inside my home though because the first person to find my body will be my mom then and I don't want her to witness that.