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LavenderBae

LavenderBae

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Feb 23, 2020
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Just took 3.68 grams of propranolol. I'm kinda scared but I hope this is it. No one will be home until 12-3 am. I left a note under my door saying to only have paramedics open it. Listening to music now. I made a spot on my floor with my pillows and my favorite stuffed kitty.
 
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TheQ22

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Thinking of you. :heart:
 
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Spitfire

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Apr 26, 2020
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What time is it there right now? How many hours until 2am?

3.5+ grams is a lethal dose, you know that though.
 
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BetterInthanOut

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Hope you find what you're looking for :heart:
 
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LavenderBae

LavenderBae

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What time is it there right now? How many hours until 2am?

3.5+ grams is a lethal dose, you know that though.
~8 hrs
It's 5:44 pm right now
I feel kinda nauseated. I hope I don't throw this up cause imma be hella pissed.
 
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Deathbydemo

Deathbydemo

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I hope you find the peace you long for @LavenderBae ❤️
 
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LavenderBae

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UPDATE: it's been 40 minutes and I barely feel anything. Maybe if I start talking shit it'll kick in the same way edibles do.
Dear propranalol,
You ain't shit, your mother was a hamster, and your father smells of elderberries.
 
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rt1989526

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Aug 2, 2020
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Wait propranolol is a method???

Wishing you peace and comfort
 
Alec

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Just took 3.68 grams of propranolol. I'm kinda scared but I hope this is it. No one will be home until 12-3 am. I left a note under my door saying to only have paramedics open it. Listening to music now. I made a spot on my floor with my pillows and my favorite stuffed kitty.
I wish you the best, I hope this goes exactly the way you want it to go. I'm thinking about you and I hope we'll meet sometime, wherever we will end up if anywhere. I love you, stay strong, stay brave, stay incredible, stay you.❤️❤️❤️
 
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LavenderBae

LavenderBae

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Feb 23, 2020
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Wait propranolol is a method???

Wishing you peace and comfort
I guess so! I read up online that anything over 1 gram is lethal and I had a bunch laying around so I said fuck it I'd do the exit bag but it's a bitch being poor thank you for the well wishes!!
I wish you the best, I hope this goes exactly the way you want it to go. I'm thinking about you and I hope we'll meet sometime, wherever we will end up if anywhere. I love you, stay strong, stay brave, stay incredible, stay you.❤❤❤
Thank you, that really means a lot♡♡♡♡
 
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GreenTree

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Can propranolol kill you ? I didn't know that.
 
LavenderBae

LavenderBae

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Feb 23, 2020
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Can propranolol kill you ? I didn't know that.
Yup! Slows your heart/nervous system down. Unfortunately it causes seizures too, but hopefully I'll be in a coma before that happens. Fingers crossed!!!
UPDATE: my stomach hurts a little and the tips of my fingers, toes, and tongue are a little bit tingly. My ears are doing a weird stuffed thing like when it gets blocked up on the airplane but without the pain.
 
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GreenTree

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Jun 1, 2020
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Thanks lavender. I got 10 milligram tablets would need too take 100 for a gram. Surprised this method ain't on the help page.
 
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DyingAlf

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I hope your journey is smooth & without pain & that you find peace.
 
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LavenderBae

LavenderBae

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Feb 23, 2020
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Of course!
Me too. I feel like so far it's been good (knock on wood). I think as long as you have plenty of time to make sure your body shuts down, this is a good, simple method.
I hope your journey is smooth & without pain & that you find peace.
Thank you
Of course!
Me too. I feel like so far it's been good (knock on wood). I think as long as you have plenty of time to make sure your body shuts down, this is a good, simple method.

Thank you <3
Oop I messed up on replying lol
 
BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

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How do you feel?


Edit: hmm, you're still logged in but I'm worried you haven't replied. I'm not liking this.
 
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LavenderBae

LavenderBae

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Feb 23, 2020
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How do you feel?


Edit: hmm, you're still logged in but I'm worried you haven't replied. I'm not liking this.
I'm still here! My legs are like jelly. My brain is moving so slow. It's getting difficult to type.
 
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rt1989526

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Aug 2, 2020
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How many pills is that like 200?? Hope you just pass out and depart :heart:
 
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LavenderBae

LavenderBae

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Feb 23, 2020
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I feel hot and my hands are a little clammy. Music hits different lolol
How many pills is that like 200?? Hope you just pass out and depart :heart:
They are 80mg each and I think I took 40 something
 
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timetofly

timetofly

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Aug 8, 2020
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I'm so worried about you, I hope everything works out just as you want. You're so brave!
 
BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

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I feel hot and my hands are a little clammy. Music hits different lolol

They are 80mg each and I think I took 40 something
I'm actually quite scared for you to be honest.
May I ask a question? ......how do you remain calm?
 
timetofly

timetofly

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Aug 8, 2020
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Okay, time's passed, looks like OP either succeeded and is RIP now, or not. I hope everything is like OP desired, whatever it may be.
 
VIBRITANNIA

VIBRITANNIA

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Aug 10, 2020
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i hope you found peace.
 
MrAsclepius

MrAsclepius

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Jul 31, 2020
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I hadn't thought of this...

I can imagine it's quite unpleasant, but I hope you are at peace by now.

Fly high
 

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