Judah
Enlightened
- Oct 1, 2020
- 1,541
About the title, everyone here knows a part of me, or at least who I am in theory, but no one (except for one user) knows me in practice. My problem is that whenever I feel like I'm screwing things up in a foolish and pointless way, I force myself to disassociate myself from every person, place or place where I've disclosed my stupid actions.
That's how I define it, stupid actions, like I said, everything I touch I destroy. Causing in me a series of detestable or toxic attitudes that, as much as I want, I can't leave.
So, I want to leave SS because I messed up or did some stupid things with other users here, my type of autism makes my mind so restless that it makes me think of thousands of things at once and hardly rest from that madness. I take no medication, I am always anxious or often euphoric, as if intoxicated.
The problem is that, I am also not able to leave SS voluntarily because I am so connected to this site that I feel like it helps me in my lonely moments.
So I wanted to vent this, I'm a mess even making friends or managing them
That's how I define it, stupid actions, like I said, everything I touch I destroy. Causing in me a series of detestable or toxic attitudes that, as much as I want, I can't leave.
So, I want to leave SS because I messed up or did some stupid things with other users here, my type of autism makes my mind so restless that it makes me think of thousands of things at once and hardly rest from that madness. I take no medication, I am always anxious or often euphoric, as if intoxicated.
The problem is that, I am also not able to leave SS voluntarily because I am so connected to this site that I feel like it helps me in my lonely moments.
So I wanted to vent this, I'm a mess even making friends or managing them