I have to die I have to die I have to die

[orangepulp]

Yeah of course my fucking stupid ass is in a mental health hospital for "psychosis" for the umpteenth time. The thing is there's a fucking demon speaking to me and it says it will kill me and make me go to hell and train me to become a demon but it said if I kill myself first then I don't have to become a demon I can just stop existing the thing is the demon came in human form as a patient yesterday so the clock is really ticking any ideas?? I can't escape the garden fences are really high I tried stealing the key card but they wrestled it off me I tried hanging myself with my trousers but there was nothing to tie them too I tried stuffing tissue down my throat to choke me but I just end up throwing it up. How the fuck do I die I'm desperate any advice please

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrific what you have to endure and sadly there is just no straightforward way to leave this world especially if one is in a mental hospital, it sounds like you've considered all the possibilities of ways to leave. I do hate how we exist in a world where there is no easy way to free ourselves from existing but sadly it's the reality. I do hope that you find the freedom you so desperately wish for.

 

[TapeMachine]

I'm sorry that I don't have any advice to lend, but I just wanted you to know you're not alone, and that I'm sorry you're going through such a stressful situation. ❤

 

[Aisley]

The demon is not real. The people around you are just people. I know the demon looks real, and he sounds real, but he's not. There are pills that make it go away. I hope you get access to those pills, and you get to experience the quiet thoughts that those pills can give you. I don't always say this, but be completely honest with your psychologist. Take care of yourself, and breathe this out. You have just as much time as you choose to give yourself.

 

[SeenMoreThanEnough]

Yeah of course my fucking stupid ass is in a mental health hospital for "psychosis" for the umpteenth time. The thing is there's a fucking demon speaking to me and it says it will kill me and make me go to hell and train me to become a demon but it said if I kill myself first then I don't have to become a demon I can just stop existing the thing is the demon came in human form as a patient yesterday so the clock is really ticking any ideas?? I can't escape the garden fences are really high I tried stealing the key card but they wrestled it off me I tried hanging myself with my trousers but there was nothing to tie them too I tried stuffing tissue down my throat to choke me but I just end up throwing it up. How the fuck do I die I'm desperate any advice please

My advice would be try to get as stable as possible in there, then regain your freedom, and then try to build on it as much as possible. Hopefully you can find some sustained stability and not return there, because mental hospitals are generally horrible places to be.