sadidiot0328
I feel like I died long ago
- Jun 1, 2023
- 85
Does anyone else avoid social interactions or balance them in a way its not so often? Im afraid Im saying something that upsets people or saying something wrong and making the few friends I have upset with me. The same happens on a day to day basis. The whole day Im worried I am going to anger someone or do something wrong or something WILL go wrong. It eats me up and I usually distract myself to ignore the feeling.
Another recent thing Ive dealt with is the constant thought of something disturbing or awful. Sometimes a graphic or simply gross thought will appear in my head and get more and more intense with little things that remind me of it until it disappears one day. Then itll appear in waves from then on. THEN I'll have an issue where I just need to double-check something. Even if im 100% positive I did it, Ill completely forget and itll eat at me until I check again. and again. and again.
Please, does anyone know a name for this kind of thing? I searched it up and google and other people online say its OCD but I havent been diagonsed with that and I dont think I have it. I dont know how to get rid of these feelings. i attached a drawing that explains somewhat
Another recent thing Ive dealt with is the constant thought of something disturbing or awful. Sometimes a graphic or simply gross thought will appear in my head and get more and more intense with little things that remind me of it until it disappears one day. Then itll appear in waves from then on. THEN I'll have an issue where I just need to double-check something. Even if im 100% positive I did it, Ill completely forget and itll eat at me until I check again. and again. and again.
Please, does anyone know a name for this kind of thing? I searched it up and google and other people online say its OCD but I havent been diagonsed with that and I dont think I have it. I dont know how to get rid of these feelings. i attached a drawing that explains somewhat