Method I have had enough

[new life]

I am so fed up of having to wait i might try hanging tonight. Bought this 14mm 330KG rope will this be ok. Also cant do it at home so thinking of the woods would this be an ok location.

 

[Lost_the_will2_live]

I am so fed up of having to wait i might try hanging tonight. Bought this 14mm 330KG rope will this be ok. Also cant do it at home so thinking of the woods would this be an ok location. View attachment 29741

What is it your fed up of waiting for!? Talk to me :)

 

[new life]

What is it your fed up of waiting for!? Talk to me :)

My actual prefered method is CO in a tent in a campsite. However the campsite does not open till augast, so i have to wait all that time untill augast. I just hate having to live everyday in pain, thats why i have just bought my rope to try and leave today.

 

[BorderlineSuixide]

This will be okay, if your worried about your loved ones finding you, is there any forest/wood anywhere near you? If you need to talk, please message me as we don't want you doing this if we can help it!!!

 

[new life]

There is a few woods near me but they are quite open and i am worried about people finding me. Surly my mum would carry on as normal so i am not worried about that.

 

[Ready2020]

I am not offering any advice but i am exiting tomorrow and doing it quite a far way from home to save relatives (even tho we dont speak) the hurt of it making local news

 

[new life]

I am not offering any advice but i am exiting tomorrow and doing it quite a far way from home to save relatives (even tho we dont speak) the hurt of it making local news

I wish you a peaceful journey as all of us struggle. Hope you find peace at last. I am sure we will see you soon.
My location when i am supposed to do it in augast is also about 4 hours from my home, again to avoid anybody from stopping me.

 

[Lost_the_will2_live]

I wish you a peaceful journey as all of us struggle. Hope you find peace at last. I am sure we will see you soon.
My location when i am supposed to do it in augast is also about 4 hours from my home, again to avoid anybody from stopping me.

You don't seem ready, why don't you just wait until August and think more about the situation. We are all here for you and most of us are going through the same shit x

 

[new life]

You don't seem ready, why don't you just wait until August and think more about the situation. We are all here for you and most of us are going through the same shit x

I understand what u are saying we are all going through the same shit, i really want to wait till augast so i can do the method i want. However it is just so painful having to live every day until then.

 

[TheEndof]

I understand what u are saying we are all going through the same shit, i really want to wait till augast so i can do the method i want. However it is just so painful having to live every day until then.

I understand you as I am waiting until May or June at the latest but everyday is an immense struggle. I don't know how I manage to survive but I am getting closer and closer to just ending it sooner rather than later. Please know you are not alone. I will be thinking of you.

 

[new life]

I understand you as I am waiting until May or June at the latest but everyday is an immense struggle. I don't know how I manage to survive but I am getting closer and closer to just ending it sooner rather than later. Please know you are not alone. I will be thinking of you.

How come you are waiting if u dont mind me asking untill may or june. I am glad you understand me but i am sure others do aswell. Everyday is certainly an imense struggle to survive and keep going i dont know how we do it. Feel free to talk anytime i am thinking of you as well.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

If you decide not to wait, I hope you have peace.

 

[new life]

If you decide not to wait, I hope you have peace.

Thank you i hope u do to. Its just the method in augast if i wait is so much more peacefull. Its just the pain of living everyday that makes me want to try sooner. I have already had to postpone the hanging attempt to today or tomorrow as i need to fully ensure i have a good location, and understand what to do as i have never done this method before.
I seriosly cant wait to ctb as then i will be at peace for definitely. This world is such a horrible place.

 

[Otter]

I understand what u are saying we are all going through the same shit, i really want to wait till augast so i can do the method i want. However it is just so painful having to live every day until then.

You don't have to have a campsite to put up a tent. Just need to find some discrete forest- basically the same thing you are looking for now.

 

[new life]

You don't have to have a campsite to put up a tent. Just need to find some discrete forest- basically the same thing you are looking for now.

I know that but i want this campsite specifically as it is in a lovely, peacefull and tranquil location. It is surrounded by wildlife, nature and beautiful scenery. That is why i chose that discrete location as it is far from home aswell so nobody should be able to stop me, as i will be at least 3 hours away.

 

[new life]

UPDATE: Just visited my location i was going to try to hang myself in, they have cut down all the wooded area so it is in full veiw of the path next to it. Off to second location that is like a big forest so i do not think they would have done the same there, i doubt it anyway.

 

[Lost_the_will2_live]

I understand what u are saying we are all going through the same shit, i really want to wait till augast so i can do the method i want. However it is just so painful having to live every day until then.

I know exactly how you feel, please don't think your alone with those feelings. I had it in my head I wouldn't be here for April, and I've been thinking about ctb properly since last year! I have had three attempts , one I would call a cry for help but the other two I was saved before my time to ctb.

Things have been looking up a little in my life and I don't think that would ever have been possible, I still hate the world and I'm angry at certain things but these good times at the moment are making me hang on that little bit longer.

They might disappear tomorrow or next week etc and I go back to bad luck and shit times again but for now I'm kind of enjoying the good! It might be that I ctb on a high rather than a low but I just want you to see that things have a weird way of turning around. I totally believe in fate. I hope you get some happy days and times because you seem so low and sad and I definitely know how that feels, but please take it day by day and if you still want to leave this shit world I wish you eternal peace and happiness on the other side. Always here if u wish to vent x

 

[aukguy]

@new life sorry to hear your pain. the rope looks good, I used to have one like that - I think you are in the UK, as am I. PM me if you wish to chat

 

[new life]

Just checking a few bits, such as how to tie a good enough knot so that hopefully i will be successful then i don't have to wait till August. Also it is dark now and i do not have a light to see what i am doing in the woods, when tying a knot around the tree etc so frustratigly might have to wait till tomorrow again. However i have a good place in my bedroom to tie the rope around and my parents are out untill tomorrow morning, so might attempt in my bedroom tonight.

 

[new life]

I know exactly how you feel, please don't think your alone with those feelings. I had it in my head I wouldn't be here for April, and I've been thinking about ctb properly since last year! I have had three attempts , one I would call a cry for help but the other two I was saved before my time to ctb.

Things have been looking up a little in my life and I don't think that would ever have been possible, I still hate the world and I'm angry at certain things but these good times at the moment are making me hang on that little bit longer.

They might disappear tomorrow or next week etc and I go back to bad luck and shit times again but for now I'm kind of enjoying the good! It might be that I ctb on a high rather than a low but I just want you to see that things have a weird way of turning around. I totally believe in fate. I hope you get some happy days and times because you seem so low and sad and I definitely know how that feels, but please take it day by day and if you still want to leave this shit world I wish you eternal peace and happiness on the other side. Always here if u wish to vent x

Hi thanks for your understanding I know I am not alone with theese feelings as everybody on here has them. You are not the only one who has tried before to kill themselves i assure you. I have attempted an overdose at leat 10 times but on all ocasions I was stopped and treated in hospital. I had no choice about treatment as I was completely out of it on drugs whilst they started the treatment, when I came round they had already reversed the damage. I understand what you are saying about things possibly turning around, but I am certainly sure I want to ctb and be at peace. I hope I find happy days aswell before I go. Thank you I hope I find peace when I leave this world. Same to you always here if you want to vent. X

@new life sorry to hear your pain. the rope looks good, I used to have one like that - I think you are in the UK, as am I. PM me if you wish to chat

I am in the UK yes I will possibly pop you a PM tomorrow.