Ww42
Experienced
- Feb 24, 2024
- 234
It seems like I can't make up my mind to the outsider, but I promise it is just because I am weighing all my options. I've chosen SN to use a second time around after my first failed attempt ( can be seen on my page the story of my SN experience). I was originally going to hang myself while intoxicated with alcohol, but after testing various ropes and hanging areas that could potentially handle my overweight self, I realized that there is too much risk associated with it because of me being overweight (250 pounds at 5'10 height). Because of this, I have ordered SN for my 2nd and final attempt that will happen soon, probably around October with how long the shipping will take. Anyways, I would like to make friends on here to just talk daily with about anything before my time comes, because with this purchase of SN, I am certain that October of 2024 will be my final month alive. I just want anyone to connect to and talk with on here for this last month leading up to my death. If anyone wants to do that please DM me, they are open. I'm just very lonely, depressed, probably and alcoholic, and I have autism so that may be an issue for some people here and that's okay. I love you all and wish nothing but the best for you all, even if the best means killing yourself like I will be in the next month. I'll end this long ass post by saying yet again that my DM's are open so if anyone wants to just chat about anything, doesn't have to be suicide related, we can just talk about our interests or what we are doing currently etc I would love to have another person to talk to on here before I depart. If you read this far, thank you for trudging through my nonsense <3