I have decided that I will run away then commit suicide

[Slenderman]

At the end of this month, I'll leave home and not come back. Maybe I'll go at the sea. Whatever. I'll take my bike so I don't have to spend money on transportation When I completely run out of money, I'll kill myself by jumping off a bridge.
Just feels good to think about it

 

[Egddios]

I feel like running away at times, just disappearing and ending my life in a similar way. The train station is a few minutes from my apartment, sometimes I think of getting a ticket to as far away as I can get.

The reality of my situation is, I'm likely going to CTB here in my apartment. The lease is up as of September 1st, so I've got 2 months left here and my options after that aren't so great. Move back in with my father, who can't wrap his head around why I have "problems" and waste away there, or end up in the state psych hospital which I imagine is atrocious.

My time is rapidly approaching. I just want this to be over already. I see my therapist on Monday and psych on Tuesday, depending on the outcome of my psych appt (if he wants to put me inpatient for more ECT or med changes), I'm likely to CTB this coming week.

 

[barny]

yea I think about it, and when I escaped from the psych ward (haha) I walked to the train station. was going to get the train to Scotland unforuntaley police found cctv. sometimes I think I could just run away, to somewhere no one knows me, live in a tent or a box,, or alternatively jump on a plane or ferry and go away. like that whats it Stephen Fry did. get some perspective. no one would notice I was gone,