Venting I have decided i am going to try and jump tommorow

[SHThrowAway213]

The cliff is only 80 foot but I have no other options .
I am completely done and fucked off with everything.
I don't want to have to do this, I don't want to die but I have no way out apart from this.
I'm sorry

 

[Arrow]

80ft? i don't think that's a good height at all. i don't think that's high enough, and if you survive you'll be in a far worse position...

 

[SHThrowAway213]

80ft? i don't think that's a good height at all. i don't think that's high enough, and if you survive you'll be in a far worse position...

I know I might survive, but it is my only option.
I can't get SN again as my husband found my last batch and now knows what the parcel looks like, and I have tried hanging myself and failed too many times.

 

[thereisnoneed]

I know I might survive, but it is my only option.
I can't get SN again as my husband found my last batch and now knows what the parcel looks like, and I have tried hanging myself and failed too many times.

Have you tried full hanging?

 

[SHThrowAway213]

M

Have you tried full hanging?

Have nowhere to do it

 

[FriendofDeath]

Is there no way to get out of your situation? I can read your desperation. Sending you light and love, whatever you decide.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

Is there no way to get out of your situation? I can read your desperation. Sending you light and love, whatever you decide.

I can see no way out
Thank you

 

[NotGonnaLast]

Have you tried sending SN to a different address?

 

[SHThrowAway213]

Have you tried sending SN to a different address?

There is no other address I could send it to, and no PO boxes in my town

 

[lostangel]

Hi, I'm sorry you feel this is the only way but have you considered CO. All you really need is a car with and some tape to block the vents. Some charcoal in a steel bucket or something to hold it in.

I don't think you should jump the 80ft. The chances of dying are very low. The risk of putting yourself in a worse condition is high in this one. Please do not jump as it is evident that you will end up in a worse condition.

There are many places to hang. If you have a car you can travel to a forest of some sort. Or even get a rather strap and practice the night night method.

Please don't hurt yourself. But whatever option you take I wish the best and that you can find peace.

 

[Meowkin]

The cliff is only 80 foot but I have no other options .
I am completely done and fucked off with everything.
I don't want to have to do this, I don't want to die but I have no way out apart from this.
I'm sorry

Good luck. I hope you find what you're looking for.

 

[I’mDone]

The cliff is only 80 foot but I have no other options .
I am completely done and fucked off with everything.
I don't want to have to do this, I don't want to die but I have no way out apart from this.
I'm sorry

Please don't. 80' is very unlikely to be fatal and is pretty much guaranteed to leave you in a huge amount of pain with a strong possibility of being disabled.

 

[thereisnoneed]

M
Have nowhere to do it

how about understairs ?

 

[HappyMstake]

M
Have nowhere to do it

Are there no wooded areas around where you live that are secluded. You don't really too much time maybe just an hour or so.

 

[Deleted member 14386]

I used to jump 40ft rocks as a kid, narrowing your feet and going in like a bullet. It hurt like hell and a few people broke their feet/ankles. @80ft I really wouldn't recommend it. There has to be another option? why the rush?
edit: @other members, could a rope be tied to a tree or something near the cliff to do a full suspension?

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I'm not sure I'll be able to do it today.
I told my husband I wanted to go for a bike ride after his parcel comes and hes being extremely suspicious of me

 

[rhiino]

It is hard when people try to stop you, as if it was their life and their choice.

Are you talking about 24 m / 80 ft over water or soil?

 

[SHThrowAway213]

It is hard when people try to stop you, as if it was their life and their choice.

Are you talking about 24 m / 80 ft over water or soil?

Over sand but it's a bit sloped so I could hit the base of the cliff on the way down

 

[I’mDone]

Over sand but it's a bit sloped so I could hit the base of the cliff on the way down

So risky. Please reconsider. If you end up paralysed or so severely injured that you can't walk unaided then you will suffer the same mental agony that you now feel for the rest of your natural life. Acting rashly now would ironically prolong your pain. And then there's the physical pain on top.

 

[Alec]

I want you to know I'm thinking about you and keeping you in my heart and thoughts, even if it changes little to nothing. I'm so sorry for your situation!!! I love you?

Love
—Alec.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I couldn't leave my flat.
My husband is being very suspicious of me and I didn't want him calling the Police so I couldn't go.

 

[Walilamdzi]

I couldn't leave my flat.
My husband is being very suspicious of me and I didn't want him calling the Police so I couldn't go.

What caused his suspicion?

 

[Valsalva]

I know I might survive, but it is my only option.
I can't get SN again as my husband found my last batch and now knows what the parcel looks like, and I have tried hanging myself and failed too many times.

Why did you fail with hanging? Full or partial?

 

[Brackenshire]

Wishing for you a calmness of mind and spirit

 

[SHThrowAway213]

Why did you fail with hanging? Full or partial?

Partial
Could not make myself pass out
Have nowhere to do full

What caused his suspicion?

He knows that my mental health is bad atm, and when it is this bad he knows my suicidal urges are bad.
And I don't usally go for a random bike ride, if I want to go out I usally take the dog for a walk

 

[Walilamdzi]

Ahhh. Be careful, you don't want to end up injured like this report https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-dorset-52864454

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I don't want to encourage, but knowing how much pain you are in, I can understand why you state you want too.
80ft may or may not work, People have died from lower, people have survived from higher.

I really wish help was there for you :(

 

[Idledays]

I couldn't leave my flat.
My husband is being very suspicious of me and I didn't want him calling the Police so I couldn't go.

Maybe let's slow down. It's hard when you hurt so much...but if you've raised suspicion it suggest you're possibly acting impulsively and out of character.

Take a breath.

How are you feeling about things now?

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I don't want to encourage, but knowing how much pain you are in, I can understand why you state you want too.
80ft may or may not work, People have died from lower, people have survived from higher.

I really wish help was there for you :(

Thank you, I wish help was here for me too

Maybe let's slow down. It's hard when you hurt so much...but if you've raised suspicion it suggest you're possibly acting impulsively and out of character.

Take a breath.

How are you feeling about things now?

Not as impulsive now, but the urges are still strong

 

[Brackenshire]

Sending you a virtual hug