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Unicorncorn21
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- Apr 25, 2020
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I have been seeing the mental health person at my school for 4 years. Not the same person for all 4 years since I changed schools 2 years ago.
I have admitted to self harm, suicidal thoughts and complained about dissociation and wild mood swings.
Last December I got bullied online so I decided I'm not going to ctb just yet but I decided I've had enough and wanted to end up in prison. I said on snapchat I'm going to shoot up my school. I don't want to hurt anyone really but my goal was to get myself locked up. The cops came to school the next day and all that really happened was that they set me up with a real therapist instead of the school person. I went there for like 4 sessions and they ghosted me. I had an appointment and they didn't come to fetch me from the waiting room. Next day they just called me and asked if I want to schedule another time. I said fuck that and refused.
Ever since december I have been scared every time I see a cop. I constantly think about them following my every move and reading everything I do online.
People say you can always get help but you literally can't. I live in a welfare state and if I want to get therapy I'd always end up with the people who ghosted me since they are the only ones doing real therapy for minors. They don't give meds or diagnose. I guess I'll just be my own therapist and order some drugs to feel good. Not many other options left.
I have admitted to self harm, suicidal thoughts and complained about dissociation and wild mood swings.
Last December I got bullied online so I decided I'm not going to ctb just yet but I decided I've had enough and wanted to end up in prison. I said on snapchat I'm going to shoot up my school. I don't want to hurt anyone really but my goal was to get myself locked up. The cops came to school the next day and all that really happened was that they set me up with a real therapist instead of the school person. I went there for like 4 sessions and they ghosted me. I had an appointment and they didn't come to fetch me from the waiting room. Next day they just called me and asked if I want to schedule another time. I said fuck that and refused.
Ever since december I have been scared every time I see a cop. I constantly think about them following my every move and reading everything I do online.
People say you can always get help but you literally can't. I live in a welfare state and if I want to get therapy I'd always end up with the people who ghosted me since they are the only ones doing real therapy for minors. They don't give meds or diagnose. I guess I'll just be my own therapist and order some drugs to feel good. Not many other options left.