whatevs
Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
- Jan 15, 2022
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Since 2011 I don't rest at night and every year I'm more exhausted. Lately talking to online acquaitances has become part of an unsurmountable checklist. I'm half-dead at best. Suicide will come regardless of anything else if this isn't solved somehow. I will not be able to hold a job or just do anything with my days but lie down with my hands glued to the phone.
I can't even masturbate properly anymore, I'm truly a husk lol
So for me it's a physical illness. Interrumpted or limited sleep has always been a cheap and simple way to torture people, as Solzhenitsyn said. In terms of what I tried, doctors or supplement companies have been expensive dealers of false hope.
Everything is taken from you when you don't rest for enough time, and I mean everything worldy, which to most people equals everything. Smarts, wit, looks, libido, drive... At least I have a vague sense of spirituality.
I can't even masturbate properly anymore, I'm truly a husk lol
So for me it's a physical illness. Interrumpted or limited sleep has always been a cheap and simple way to torture people, as Solzhenitsyn said. In terms of what I tried, doctors or supplement companies have been expensive dealers of false hope.
Everything is taken from you when you don't rest for enough time, and I mean everything worldy, which to most people equals everything. Smarts, wit, looks, libido, drive... At least I have a vague sense of spirituality.