I have a jealousy problem

[sometimes.sometimes]

My jealousy problem gets so intense, I can't even sleep at night. I only got four hours of sleep, and my thoughts are keeping me up. I know that going on an electronic is going to make it a lot worse, but I have nothing else to do. Going onto my laptop and my phone numbs it a little bit, but it never goes away. I can't stand watching other people who have things I don't have. Right now, whenever I see people have a dad, I get so jealous. I am happy they have a dad and didn't have to go through the torture I went through, but it just hurts.

Another thing is significant others. Everybody I know has one besides me. I know it is because I don't put myself out there, but how can I when everyone I know leaves me? I will admit that sometimes I am the issue, but other times, I am not. Back in May, I had two friends that used me in a horrible way. Last year, my best friend ghosted me and later talked crap about me. Two years ago, my childhood friend said really awful things about my appearance and hobbies.

I just don't know anymore.

 

[Rack.-]

I can't stand watching other people who have things I don't have. Right now, whenever I see people have a dad, I get so jealous. I am happy they have a dad and didn't have to go through the torture I went through, but it just hurts

Heyo, I understand that you feel jealous for things that other people have or stuff you wished it could have gone different for you. But we are humans and it's completely normal to have these feelings.

Another thing is significant others. Everybody I know has one besides me. I know it is because I don't put myself out there, but how can I when everyone I know leaves me?

You are definitely not the only one who's feeling like that. I'm going through the exact same, I never had anyone special by my side in all this 19 years I've been around and I barely lost all of my friends during the past years. I think the reason I've never tried expressing my emotions towards someone is because I always had this thought of being useless and pathetic going around my head... Even though I also think that I would be kind and caring but whatever... The same thing happened with my friends, I simply stopped talking to them because I couldn't stop thinking that I was so useless to deserve anyone around me. And then when you start thinking about it I just feel horrible, like getting stabbed every time I see how lonely I am so yeah, I know how it hurts as well... From my personal perspective I think that the best way to address this self hatred and jealousy thoughts is by focusing on self improvement, in my case I try to exercise regularly by going to the gym and I'm currently trying to get a driving license.

I can't even sleep at night. I only got four hours of sleep, and my thoughts are keeping me up.

I might be a bad example to tell you this because I barely reach 7 hours of sleep every night but rest is like really really important if not the most important thing for both our physical and mental health. It's crucial to get +8h of sleep every night if you want to feel better and it's also very important to avoid using electronic devices at least an hour before going to bed (this one is incredibly hard for me even though it's like the most simple thing ever )

But anyways I hope I could help you a bit by telling you this and I'm also here if you need someone to talk, take care
(lmao sorry for the long text)

 

[FuneralCry]

I just think that after all other people in this dreadful world cannot be relied on, I find it awful how humans very often create more suffering. But anyway it must be tiring being trapped in that situation, it certainly is such a cruel world we exist in where people suffer so much all through no fault of their own.

 

[sometimes.sometimes]

Heyo, I understand that you feel jealous for things that other people have or stuff you wished it could have gone different for you. But we are humans and it's completely normal to have these feelings.


You are definitely not the only one who's feeling like that. I'm going through the exact same, I never had anyone special by my side in all this 19 years I've been around and I barely lost all of my friends during the past years. I think the reason I've never tried expressing my emotions towards someone is because I always had this thought of being useless and pathetic going around my head... Even though I also think that I would be kind and caring but whatever... The same thing happened with my friends, I simply stopped talking to them because I couldn't stop thinking that I was so useless to deserve anyone around me. And then when you start thinking about it I just feel horrible, like getting stabbed every time I see how lonely I am so yeah, I know how it hurts as well... From my personal perspective I think that the best way to address this self hatred and jealousy thoughts is by focusing on self improvement, in my case I try to exercise regularly by going to the gym and I'm currently trying to get a driving license.


I might be a bad example to tell you this because I barely reach 7 hours of sleep every night but rest is like really really important if not the most important thing for both our physical and mental health. It's crucial to get +8h of sleep every night if you want to feel better and it's also very important to avoid using electronic devices at least an hour before going to bed (this one is incredibly hard for me even though it's like the most simple thing ever )

But anyways I hope I could help you a bit by telling you this and I'm also here if you need someone to talk, take care
(lmao sorry for the long text)

Thank you for the response! :)