Venting I hate watching the news

[Harasaki]

There's nothing that gets me more depressed, it's terrible seeing so much misery in the world and bad things happening to good people.
Sometimes I see good people really sick or that died tragically or just in terrible conditions on tv and that's the worst part, I feel like it should be me in their place. I know that I don't deserve the life I have or the oxigen I breathe and if I died the only person that would miss me would be my mom, even if her life would be a lot easier if I was not around for sure.

I literally have no friends, the only human contact that I have is my mom and I'm also a faillure on every aspect of my life. Even though I had everything to be completelly happy, successful and have a productive life I'm a useless piece of garbage, a parasite. I know that if one of those people were in my place they could actually be a decent human and be able to contribute with society in some way.

Well anyway, thank you for reading.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Why do you think you deserve something bad to happen to you?

 

[Final Escape]

Don't watch the news. You will want to kill yourself lol! Especially the mainstream media that's on tv. It's designed on purpose to make people feel like shit to keep u in that low vibrational state. Whatever u focus on grows so be careful what u focus on. That will be what manifests in your life. Same with thoughts, if u have lots of negative thinking it destroys u and your capacity to improve your life. Obviously u are not those terrible things u think u are. It's a miracle you are even here and u have value just because u are here. Please don't hate yourself because u don't have friends. It's time to focus on loving yourself and finding ways to be of service to other people. That is one way u can attract friends pursue something u want or go where the people are who u might want as friends. Pursue your interests and the friends will come.

 

[Woodnote]

I don't watch or read the news. I make sure I'm aware of what's important but I avoid most of it. It just makes me want to end my life now. I know how you feel about being a friendless failure. I feel the same. I had the potential to live a decent life and ruined it.