Discussion I hate waking up in the morning

[Cannedbones]

The sun rises again. Great. Just another day of pretending that everything is okay. That the world is a lovely place to live in and that society is not fucked up.

With every sunrise, I feel more dead inside. It never felt like a new day, or a new chance at life kind of opportunity.

I'm just expected to get out of bed, all energetic and shit and proceed with my day. I have to be "productive", socialize and be a good, fit member of society. But, I'm not and I'll never be.

I can't wait till it's nighttime again. Darkness brings me hope. Hope that one day I'll sleep and never wake up again. I wish darkness could consume me right in the middle of the day. Im home alone today, finally. I can at least bring peace to myself by practicing my method.

 

[siray]

You expressed my desolation of heart very well, mornings are so unforgiving. Where I live, it's 34 degree celcius at 11am, I always wake up with a deep sorrow that's impossible to describe in words.

Who among us doesn't wish we would just die in our sleep so that we don't have to see another day of horror? Reality is torturous for us depressed suicidal folk, these wretched feelings don't ever leave me, I long for the eternal dreamless sleep every night I go to bed.

May I ask what method you have chosen? Mine is shotgun or handgun, trying to acquire it, it's very difficult. However, pulling the trigger for me will be easy as I have desperately longed for death for many long years. Can't remember ever feeling okay let alone happy.

 

[Cannedbones]

You expressed my desolation of heart very well, mornings are so unforgiving. Where I live, it's 34 degree celcius at 11am, I always wake up with a deep sorrow that's impossible to describe in words.

Who among us doesn't wish we would just die in our sleep so that we don't have to see another day of horror? Reality is torturous for us depressed suicidal folk, these wretched feelings don't ever leave me, I long for the eternal dreamless sleep every night I go to bed.

May I ask what method you have chosen? Mine is shotgun or handgun, trying to acquire it, it's very difficult. However, pulling the trigger for me will be easy as I have desperately longed for death for many long years. Can't remember ever feeling okay let alone happy.

It's actually 33 degrees Celsius here and nearly 11 am. Yet, I have no strength to get out of bed. I can't even fake it anymore.

I've been practicing with partial hanging lately. I think this is the only available method for me now. I personally never thought of using a firearm. I wouldn't want anyone to find me in that state. And id definitely have a hard time acquiring it as you have mentioned.

 

[ClownMe]

I hate nighttime because I know that i have to go to bed soon and relive the same day over and over again. My life is pretty much Groundhog Day.

 

[Sra_TZ]

I feel you mate. Every morning, the realization hits that it's going to be another day of living with this pain. I wake up early and just lie there for a while. Staring at the ceiling- contemplating my life, thinking about death. An alarm rings on my phone, I drag myself out of bed. Thus begins a day of studying for an academic degree which I don't care about, working a job and earning money I won't take to my grave, coming home to people who don't deserve an useless human being like me.

A few minutes of genuine happiness as the person I love the most tells me about her day, her dreams, her future. Little does she know I won't be around to see most of it.

Nightfall brings along with it desperate pleas of "I wish I could die in my sleep and not wake up tomorrow"..

I hope you find peace at some point
~S

 

[FuneralCry]

Waking up is the worst time of the day for me. It is a disappointing feeling that I am still here. All I want is eternal sleep. I know that all that awaits for me is another day of my pointless existence. I cannot do it for many more years. Night time is a little bit better for me as it is quieter, but there is still no escape from my thoughts.