I hate the idea of cops showing up and ambulance lugging away my body

[ThisWorldIsPointless]

Yeah I know I'll be dead but the thought of it causing a big scene and police and ambulance in front of my house just makes me feel pissed off. Then everyone's gonna know like your whole family. i Really just hate the idea of me still basically being here when I ctb. I just wanna disappear into death, no body or evidence just me dead.

 

[MsMaudlin]

Yes I feel like that!! Plus If you use SN and they send the Hazmat team out!
❤

 

[Oyoy]

I would hate for people to waste time and resources on a search party. That's one kind of party I deffinatly don't want to be a part of.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Can you not do it in a hotel?

 

[highlyvolatile]

Yes I feel like that!! Plus If you use SN and they send the Hazmat team out!
❤

They do? I didn't know that

 

[Carina]

They do? I didn't know that

Maybe if they really think it's something different. Most places most likely wouldn't, especially if it looks like a suicide.

 

[ThisWorldIsPointless]

Can you not do it in a hotel?

either way it's still gonna cause a scene. Anytime anyone dies it's a big deal sadly.

 

[highlyvolatile]

Maybe if they really think it's something different. Most places most likely wouldn't, especially if it looks like a suicide.

Oh okay i just thought its strange to send hazmat team out if its not CO or something.

 

[MsMaudlin]

I guess it depends where in the world you are, hopefully your neighbours might think you have Corona virus!

 

[a.n.kirillov]

There are ways to avoid that if you disappear and make it clear that nothing will be found. You'd have to jump into an active volcano tho.

 

[R_N]

I feel the same. Disappearing would be the best thing.

 

[MaybeSoon]

Yes I feel like that!! Plus If you use SN and they send the Hazmat team out!
❤

This is why I'm leaning towards hanging or tourniquet again if it ever comes to that. Less fuss and less chance of the press picking up on it and creating more unnecessary stress for family. Just bag me up and burn me.

 

[Empty Smile]

I'll be deep in the woods somewhere. So hopefully by the time I'm found(hopefully never), I'll be all bones, or completely gone.

 

[mesohappy]

I want die in a pyramid,let my home be that.A pharaoh,board up my windows and barricade my doors..Let me die and rot with my house a monument to my sad life.Let no one molest my corpse lest it come with a curse.Let me lie and rot with my prize belongings,let the house rot and collapse upon my dry bones...Yet the grave robbers forgot and raided the phararohs graves...

In the end it dont even matter..Your brief glimpse of life will be deaded by your own hand,Your "helpers" that you left notes too,will soon die as well...The first responders wont remember your name..May refer to you, in time,as a reference and case number,yet they will die as well..As all around you..Life is hard.Harder as you sit front row,and observe it.

 

[ThisWorldIsPointless]

I'll be deep in the woods somewhere. So hopefully by the time I'm found(hopefully never), I'll be all bones, or completely gone.

That would be ideal for me. Bring a rope into the woods, hang myself and never be found. I don't live by any deep wooded areas tho sadly.

 

[Empty Smile]

That would be ideal for me. Bring a rope into the woods, hang myself and never be found. I don't live by any deep wooded areas tho sadly.

Yeah. That's what sucks for a lot of the users here. They can't get to where they'd rather be.

 

[ThisWorldIsPointless]

Yeah. That's what sucks for a lot of the users here. They can't get to where they'd rather be.

whats your plan to ctb?

 

[AcornUnderground]

I was so excited to be accepted to Pegasos to essentially disappear - no suicide even on death certificate. I'm so physically ill it is hard to get there, and hard to survive bedridden here...and now the quarantine and travel bans. I wanted to spare my children knowing. Also, I'm scared as hell to die. I almost need something structured and Clinical to help it happen. All my benzos aren't going to make me calm enough.❤

But if you have physical ailments and of a certain age, you can essentially disappear if you can afford to leave the country and pay for it! At least when the world is not on lockdown.

Also, I know what you mean. There's something about my dead body being left behind and dealt with and being wheeled off to the coroners office I just have such a hard time with that. Makes no sense, we will be dead but it's hard to think about.

 

[Empty Smile]

whats your plan to ctb?

CO and tent. If that fails, hang.

 

[Huntfish34]

Very new here... And I agree with all of you guys on this, I really wish I could Just disappear and be Gone. ( Live in a small town where I Know most of the responders and some of the cops ) Certainly thought about the added stress / chaos that could ensue. Damnt my mind won't stop trying to predict the future and let me rest. I Hate it. I hate myself. . -

 

[Heartsick Traveler]

This is why I'm leaning towards hanging or tourniquet again if it ever comes to that. Less fuss and less chance of the press picking up on it and creating more unnecessary stress for family. Just bag me up and burn me.

If you ctb at home, the method used is immaterial. The cops, paramedics, and coroner will come and the neighbors will gather and gossip.

 

[enjolras]

I'll be deep in the woods somewhere. So hopefully by the time I'm found(hopefully never), I'll be all bones, or completely gone.

Friends went looking for a missing Southeast Alaska artist. Instead, they found a note.

“To the world and all concerned: This is to officially notify you that Eric and Pam Bealer, by their own choice and free will, have committed suicide,” the note said. “We have gone to some effort to hide our bodies, as we do not want them found. Please do not waste time and money looking. It...

www.ktoo.org

 

[ThisWorldIsPointless]

Friends went looking for a missing Southeast Alaska artist. Instead, they found a note.

“To the world and all concerned: This is to officially notify you that Eric and Pam Bealer, by their own choice and free will, have committed suicide,” the note said. “We have gone to some effort to hide our bodies, as we do not want them found. Please do not waste time and money looking. It...

www.ktoo.org

Thats honestly goals. i wish someone would ctb with me. good for them.

 

[MaybeSoon]

If you ctb at home, the method used is immaterial. The cops, paramedics, and coroner will come and the neighbors will gather and gossip.

I know that but at least they wont turn up in Hazmat suits.

 

[21Neberg]

Oddly enough I like the idea. Though it's not as much the idea of police carrying away my body that I like, it's the fact that I would be dead that gives me an odd sense of happiness and content? Weird

 

[Huntfish34]

I can understand that to a degree myself. , i get it.

 

[ghostspace]

I really don't like the fact that I have a body at all. When I kill myself, I'd like to have a death sequence with a sound effect, like in video games, and then just flicker out all at once.

 

[Empty Smile]

Friends went looking for a missing Southeast Alaska artist. Instead, they found a note.

“To the world and all concerned: This is to officially notify you that Eric and Pam Bealer, by their own choice and free will, have committed suicide,” the note said. “We have gone to some effort to hide our bodies, as we do not want them found. Please do not waste time and money looking. It...

www.ktoo.org

That's how I want to be. Never found.