I hate the fact that even to get out of this hell we have to go out suffering

[Kta1994]

Its bad enough that my family will miss me and my mom will probably be depressed for a long time and plus i have to go with sn that i dont even know its gonna work and probably painful

 

[SilentSadness]

It's certainly abysmal that the only ctb methods we have access to are painful and monotonous, the people who restrict methods are delusional and responsible for the suffering of others. Life is definitely hell and it's unsurprising that the only way out is so difficult, I only want to die peacefully and never have to deal with the objective horrors of life again. The fact that life exists is a curse that should never have happened. I hope you can find a way to achieve peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also really do hate how there is no peaceful and straightforward way to free ourselves from this hellish world that we were so cruelly forced into, a peaceful way to exit is the least we deserve after being so selfishly burdened with existence in the first place. It's just so horrific to me how people try to force others to suffer and how existence is seen as an obligation rather than a choice. All those who wish to exit should just be able to die in peace without struggle.

 

[ZeroSuitDoomgirl]

I've run into the same issues myself, almost every viable method for me is either heavily restricted or terrifying (one exception I've found is an inert gas exit bag, but that has its own issues). Same issue with my family as well, my brother is going to be devastated and I haven't fully come to terms with that yet.

 

[Unending]

I've mentioned the issue of guilt being a large barrier for me quite a bit but aside from that, the fear is really what does it for me. Even with a less brutal method in reach, the fear is still very strong in my case.

 

[Blackroom_57]

Yeah this place is a prison. At least it's possible to leave it though. This place would really be hell if there was no way out.

 

[outrider567]

I've mentioned the issue of guilt being a large barrier for me quite a bit but aside from that, the fear is really what does it for me. Even with a less brutal method in reach, the fear is still very strong in my case.

There's no suffering with Nitrogen

 

[calssilva]

you are right...I think ctb will never broadly allowed because vast majority would prefer to die than face this miserable life

 

[Unending]

There's no suffering with Nitrogen

Kind of hard to pull that one off whilst living on my mom's couch. Besides I have sn as of recently so if I decide I'm ready to go, I'll be able to use that.
A little concerned I'm going to end up letting it expire. I want out but jsut cant get myself to do it.