I hate that he beat me to it

[Strawberry Moon]

My uncle ctb before I was born.

Any time that I have a moment of weakness I'm guilt tripped by my mother over how she "can't go through it again".

I see the pain in both hers and my grandmothers eyes whenever his name is mentioned.

I can't help but be bitter about it. Maybe if he was still here I'd have someone to share my struggles with. Maybe if he didn't ctb it wouldn't have caused so much trauma and conflict surrounding mental illness within my family.

I wish it could've just been me and only me.

 

[R_N]

Damn I might become that uncle.

 

[Weltall]

My uncle ctb before I was born.

The moment I feel weak I'm guilt tripped by my mother over how she "can't go through it again".

I see the pain in both hers and my grandmothers eyes whenever his name is mentioned.

I can't help but be bitter about it. Maybe if he was still here I'd have someone to share my struggles with. Maybe if he didn't ctb it wouldn't have caused so much trauma and conflict surrounding mental illness within my family.

I wish it could've just been me and only me.

There are people here you can share your trauma and issues with.
You're not alone.

 

[Strawberry Moon]

There are people here you can share your trauma and issues with.
You're not alone.

I doubt there is anyone that would want to listen but thank you.

 

[Weltall]

I doubt there is anyone that would want to listen but thank you.

Feel free to PM me. I'm available all night.
Humans are meant to be in groups, it's how we evolved.
Our monkey brains want to be around others because our biology wants us to.
I find comfort in listening and helping others.