lostmilo
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- Aug 19, 2024
- 22
I know this sounds selfish. But everytime I open up to my friends about everything they always have some positive comeback and even though they have told me about how they are struggling too and it comforts me in the moment knowing that im not alone I soon realise that our suffering is no where near the same. It's not like I want to see them do badly its just that i can tell that they don't fully understand because they have never reached their lowest like this before and that they still have alot of goo things in their life to hold on to. I can't help but feel jealous. Sometimes I can't tell if I just dont try hard enough of if I'm just really unlucky. I can't go even one full year without attempting it's actually pathetic. If the rest of life is just going to be like this then truly what is the point. Maybe I was just made to die by suicide.