Venting I hate not having complete control of my life

[Judah]

The crisis that caused the pandemic was crazy, and we are still living the consequences, our life depends on the system, employment, home, money, economic crisis. External factors that affect your life directly.

It is crazy, that your life changes due to the bad decisions of a politician, as it happened to me. My life is totally unstable, and thinking about CTB is like a game where the YES does not leave you alone.

 

[chocolatebar]

Most of the time when we think we're in control of our lives, it's just an illusion, because, in fact, we can't control much.

 

[ClownMe]

Yes, this is something that has always annoyed me. I hate putting trust in anyone or anything, I just be in control of my own destiny.

 

[Conker]

For me, it's not really even a matter of seeking complete control.

Just tired of ending up as collateral damage time & time again. Not having a place I can call home, never being given a fair chance.

There's too much pain, and even the carnal pleasures I don't really care for much any longer. Doesn't help that I find the human body to be extremely disgusting. So no matter what I will never be human, dream of becoming a breatharian alien lol.

Anyways, this place is infuriating and I rather choose nonexistence over getting trapped again on their prerecorded DVD.
Their satanic system is enough to turn your soul into a serial killer.
If there's only 1 thing I would miss is it would be the music, heroin and nothing else.



For it is only skin that completes the illusion.

 

[BeyondGoodNEvil]

if you want complete control of your life then you need to do two things
not following rules but knowing consequences
and having lost of money so u can pay out problems and do anything u want but getting rich is just luck on its own

 

[FuneralCry]

I see this life as mostly being determined by random factors, like the environment we were born in for example. We only have control to an extent, factors out of our control can ruin our lives. I see ctb as a way of gaining control over a life I never asked for, I cannot control many things but the one thing I can is when I die.

 

[All Things Must Pass]

Most of the time when we think we're in control of our lives, it's just an illusion, because, in fact, we can't control much.

This. We have to eat, shit, piss, etc.

 

[insanedoomer]

the only control we can have in this life is our decision to ctb tbh .

 

[Worndown]

Life is complex and control is conditional. At no time have we ever really been in control. Disease, environment and untold other issues can change our lives or eliminate us. We live between these issues and do our best to get through it.

 

[noaccount]

The crisis that caused the pandemic was crazy, and we are still living the consequences, our life depends on the system, employment, home, money, economic crisis. External factors that affect your life directly.

It is crazy, that your life changes due to the bad decisions of a politician, as it happened to me. My life is totally unstable, and thinking about CTB is like a game where the YES does not leave you alone.

I feel this a lot.
For me, "Tools for Conviviality" was an illuminating read, on how the "commons" were stolen from our ancestors so they had no way to live except toiling away for empire... and how we might break free or push back.
I have been looking a lot at the work of Cooperation Jackson lately, this whole system obviously creates its own crises and leaves the rest of us to figure out how to survive and clean up after it.