Venting I hate myself

[aipuweth]

I just wanna kill myself but thanks to god, if he really exists, I'm just in the worst country for gun laws. And I don't wanna kill myself with painful ways. I can't understand these motivated and happy people, except for beatiful and rich people. Their lives is in easy mode. Life is just suffering for people like me and they still want to work for these idiots. Pain and nothing else. There's nothing positive in this life. I'm not gonna change my mind. I don't want any advice to get better, like the title, I just wanna vent. I always feel so bad. I always have headache from these bad thoughts. I don't do anything else except for sleeping and watching stupid videos online. I'm even too lazy to take a shower. I hate shower because I hate seeing my body. I wish my brain could stop itself because all this stress. Maybe if you guys know an easy and painless way to CTB? I'd be very happy if anyone knows a method like that.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so dreadful suffering in this existence, existing has been nothing but pain for me as well, I'd also be relieved to have the option to just painlessly cease existing. But anyway I wish you the best, I personally really wish there's a straightforward way to just be gone.

 

[freakshow]

i relate to hating your own body, i dont even take care of myself anymore, theres just no point in that.
hanging is the most accessible and reliable method to ctb but its certainly scary. From my experience i can say that you will pass out so quick you wont even notice. Its not a painful method. Just make sure you have a proper setup so you wont fail like me ><