I hate myself

[tiredplant777]

Yeah. I was just an asshole but I apologized. But like I don't like what life has made me or who I am. I don't like being on this planet and I feel like I am always trying to make it work. I can't or wont kill myself because it would destroy my parents. But maybe I can do it after they pass. I was thinking of hanging on but I just don't think I can make it in this world and I am tired.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It's hard to not be an asshole when you have all this "junk" going on inside your head all the time. People who don't have that going on can never understand. We're fighting a battle all the time that never ends and others just don't know how tiring it is.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it's tiring feeling trapped here when you wish to leave, I'm also tired of existing, to me existing is completely unappealing.

 

[tiredplant777]

It's hard to not be an asshole when you have all this "junk" going on inside your head all the time. People who don't have that going on can never understand. We're fighting a battle all the time that never ends and others just don't know how tiring it is.

Hey thanks so much this really helps. Yeah I can't explain it to anyone. I have so much rage and grief inside me all the time.

I do understand that it's tiring feeling trapped here when you wish to leave, I'm also tired of existing, to me existing is completely unappealing.

Thanks. Yeah me too. I just flat out do not fit in in this world.