Painless_end
Life is too difficult for me
- Oct 11, 2019
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I know everyone has weaknesses and nobody's perfect.
But the nature and intensity of mental weaknesses can really cripple someone's life completely I don't have to convince anyone here about it. You all already know it.
If you are very weak in critical functional areas like productive ambition and execution, then you are in serious trouble like me.
Because there's no medicine that can help a mind that doesn't want to move into adult responsibility because of the lack of interest in doing something positive. Then you say, well if you realize all this, why aren't you changjng it ?
It's hard to explain my exact problem but imagine that the ultimate satisfaction for all productive people is "out there" doing something in the real world. Like having a job, relationship, making money, travelling, hobbies etc
And then you have me, whose ultimate satisfaction is in only doing a very limited amount of stuff and then sitting around doing nothing.
And this is not depression or laziness. It's a biological "smallness" of the brain that cannot be compensated meaningfully.
It was ok until I was still in education because there was very little responsibility. I only had to study and score well in the exams. I could study and then rest or do recreational stuff like video games etc.
The moment I started working, I was on a downward spiral because in the real world in order to succeed at anything, you have to be VERY ambitious about it and you have to take it VERY seriously. You cannot just say yeah I'll do it for a while and then when I'm completely not having fun, I'll just quit.
You can quit, but ONLY as long as there is SOMETHING that you want to do as your primary interest in life. If you quit and insist on doing nothing at all, you are going to be wrecked like me.
I will add more later but for now I gotta go.
But the nature and intensity of mental weaknesses can really cripple someone's life completely I don't have to convince anyone here about it. You all already know it.
If you are very weak in critical functional areas like productive ambition and execution, then you are in serious trouble like me.
Because there's no medicine that can help a mind that doesn't want to move into adult responsibility because of the lack of interest in doing something positive. Then you say, well if you realize all this, why aren't you changjng it ?
It's hard to explain my exact problem but imagine that the ultimate satisfaction for all productive people is "out there" doing something in the real world. Like having a job, relationship, making money, travelling, hobbies etc
And then you have me, whose ultimate satisfaction is in only doing a very limited amount of stuff and then sitting around doing nothing.
And this is not depression or laziness. It's a biological "smallness" of the brain that cannot be compensated meaningfully.
It was ok until I was still in education because there was very little responsibility. I only had to study and score well in the exams. I could study and then rest or do recreational stuff like video games etc.
The moment I started working, I was on a downward spiral because in the real world in order to succeed at anything, you have to be VERY ambitious about it and you have to take it VERY seriously. You cannot just say yeah I'll do it for a while and then when I'm completely not having fun, I'll just quit.
You can quit, but ONLY as long as there is SOMETHING that you want to do as your primary interest in life. If you quit and insist on doing nothing at all, you are going to be wrecked like me.
I will add more later but for now I gotta go.