Red
Warlock
- Apr 10, 2019
- 744
So already in a crappy position; chronically, physically unwell with no real diagnosis; been unable to work or transport myself around due to this illness; bereft of family and friends too wrapped up in themselves or too tired of aforementioned illness: this is the norm right now. Bad enough already, right?
Now they're losing test and scan results at the docs n hospital. I had a telephone appointment booked for 3pm today; they rang at 1pm, three times, in the three minutes I was in the bathroom. Mother's Day crept by yesterday with nary a "Happy Mother's Day" from my son, for whom I've been working especially hard lately. Now someone is trying desperately to access what tiny amount of money I have by using my account details to buy shit online, so much so that the bank is having to completely change all my details just as I'm about to receive a couple of long anticipated payments, as the thieves are trying to access my online banking too.
Usually I have low blood pressure, today my watch has so far alerted me to a high heart rate (above 100bpm) while sitting, twice.
Not one break, not one reason to keep going, not one glimmer of light in all of this. I just can't.
Now they're losing test and scan results at the docs n hospital. I had a telephone appointment booked for 3pm today; they rang at 1pm, three times, in the three minutes I was in the bathroom. Mother's Day crept by yesterday with nary a "Happy Mother's Day" from my son, for whom I've been working especially hard lately. Now someone is trying desperately to access what tiny amount of money I have by using my account details to buy shit online, so much so that the bank is having to completely change all my details just as I'm about to receive a couple of long anticipated payments, as the thieves are trying to access my online banking too.
Usually I have low blood pressure, today my watch has so far alerted me to a high heart rate (above 100bpm) while sitting, twice.
Not one break, not one reason to keep going, not one glimmer of light in all of this. I just can't.