Venting I hate life

[Squiddy]

I'm so tired of life kicking my ass. I'm sick of living with my emotionally unsupportive family with no way out and my cognitive issues, speech issues and dissociation. One of my supervisors got upset with me last night because I was stocking too slow (I was trapped in my head) and it made me dissociate worse and my speech issues took even more of a hit where I could barely articulate myself in person and sounded like an idiot.

I'm trying to make my life better, but it's hard. I applied to go back to college so I can get a higher paying job and escape my family finally, but I feel like I'm going to fail because of these problems. I really wish I could overcome my SI and leave already

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

I'm so tired of life kicking my ass. I'm sick of living with my emotionally unsupportive family with no way out and my cognitive issues, speech issues and dissociation. One of my supervisors got upset with me last night because I was stocking too slow (I was trapped in my head) and it made me dissociate worse and my speech issues took even more of a hit where I could barely articulate myself in person and sounded like an idiot.

I'm trying to make my life better, but it's hard. I applied to go back to college so I can get a higher paying job and escape my family finally, but I feel like I'm going to fail because of these problems. I really wish I could overcome my SI and leave already

I do too @Squiddy I took out my SN today after a pretty shitty day. I have to ctb. I can't take life's daily ass kickings anymore

 

[wanttodie]

me to I'm sick of living hope to end my life sometime

 

[GrizzlyGrapefruit]

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I really wish I could overcome my SI and leave already

You and me both. I've been wanting to CTB since 2016, and SI is one hell of thing to overcome.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've always had a dislike for this existence and life itself will always be the problem for me. The inevitability of suffering and problems in this life makes the thought of permanent sleep sound so appealing. I just wish that it's easier to leave this life behind. Your feelings of wanting to be gone are understandable and it sounds really tiring what you are going through. I wish you freedom.

 

[theboy]

me 2

 

[On Replay]

Every breath , thought , blink … etc is an inconvenience at this point. To the point it's adding frustration on top of what was already there

 

[Euthanza]

Agree with the title. I hate this life, hate the system, hate the majority in general, it tends to make me to hating myself. I get worse over time but I can only hang on until my time.

 

[TydalWave]

It is at the point we reach out limits where SI takes the back seat.

You are still here for a reason. You have not hit that limit. Life is shit. But you are taking actions to make your life better. So as long as you are in this world you might as well believe in yourself and give it your best shot. If the time ever comes, then you will know it and at least you will know a safe way out. <3

 

[Tiny Little Tree]

I'm so tired of life kicking my ass. I'm sick of living with my emotionally unsupportive family with no way out and my cognitive issues, speech issues and dissociation. One of my supervisors got upset with me last night because I was stocking too slow (I was trapped in my head) and it made me dissociate worse and my speech issues took even more of a hit where I could barely articulate myself in person and sounded like an idiot.

I'm trying to make my life better, but it's hard. I applied to go back to college so I can get a higher paying job and escape my family finally, but I feel like I'm going to fail because of these problems. I really wish I could overcome my SI and leave already

Do you think your supervisor would understand if you talked to them? I'm sure you wouldn't have to tell them absolutely everything. Maybe I'm lucky but most of the people I've worked for have been decent and understanding, like they actually want to make sure working for them is a good experience. Sure, I've had 1 or 2 who were like "do the job or get lost, no excuses" or refused to improve anything but those were definitely the exception.

 

[Squiddy]

Do you think your supervisor would understand if you talked to them? I'm sure you wouldn't have to tell them absolutely everything. Maybe I'm lucky but most of the people I've worked for have been decent and understanding, like they actually want to make sure working for them is a good experience. Sure, I've had 1 or 2 who were like "do the job or get lost, no excuses" or refused to improve anything but those were definitely the exception.

Possibly, but I'm not sure. She's kind of intimidating as she gets an attitude and yells