FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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In my case, I very much hate any kind of positive attitudes towards existing, I cannot stand anything of that nature and it certainly makes me wish to ctb even more. These kind of attitudes are reflected nearly everywhere in society with the emphasis being that existence is something that must be prolonged, and is always worth enduring. And as a result of this so much stigma is placed onto the subject of suicide and so many refuse to accept it as being a rational solution to avoid delaying the inevitable. I see anything positive and motivational, as being irritating, invalidating and dismissive, it's certainly harmful when positivity is used to glorify life and downplay all of the suffering that exists. But anyway, anything positive themed just reminds me of how much I hate existing, it's better to be realistic than be blinded by privileges and delusions. Life itself is the true problem after all.
The reality is that no matter what people say, the existence of life really is something disturbing and tragic. Life is just an endless cycle of suffering that is an unfortunate consequence of evolution, and to believe that existing really is a positive thing is delusional. As well as all the human torment being experienced, there is all the torture that animals have to go through and they don't even have the awareness to see life as being torment all for no purpose that leads nowhere, so as a result they are trapped in this cycle and cannot ctb. The amount of pain that is being experienced right now in this world is unimaginable and the fact is that chance determines everything, so there is simply no limit as to how much we can suffer, and with existence comes unlimited opportunties to be tortured, so therefore positive views, and people having hope are certainly centered around delusions.
But anyway, life is just an useless concept that leads to nothing and nowhere apart from our inevitable deterioration and of course suffering is guaranteed in this process. Something so worthless and unnecessary as life could never be valuable to me, and I see no benefit to any kind of struggle. And I cannot stand it when people being realistic have positivity forced on them and their views are seen as being "wrong", and "too negative". It simply makes sense seeing life as being a terrible thing which is why I really hate positivity. It will only get better once I'm permanently not existing and the only hope lies in being gone from this world.
The reality is that no matter what people say, the existence of life really is something disturbing and tragic. Life is just an endless cycle of suffering that is an unfortunate consequence of evolution, and to believe that existing really is a positive thing is delusional. As well as all the human torment being experienced, there is all the torture that animals have to go through and they don't even have the awareness to see life as being torment all for no purpose that leads nowhere, so as a result they are trapped in this cycle and cannot ctb. The amount of pain that is being experienced right now in this world is unimaginable and the fact is that chance determines everything, so there is simply no limit as to how much we can suffer, and with existence comes unlimited opportunties to be tortured, so therefore positive views, and people having hope are certainly centered around delusions.
But anyway, life is just an useless concept that leads to nothing and nowhere apart from our inevitable deterioration and of course suffering is guaranteed in this process. Something so worthless and unnecessary as life could never be valuable to me, and I see no benefit to any kind of struggle. And I cannot stand it when people being realistic have positivity forced on them and their views are seen as being "wrong", and "too negative". It simply makes sense seeing life as being a terrible thing which is why I really hate positivity. It will only get better once I'm permanently not existing and the only hope lies in being gone from this world.