Venting I HATE IT ALL

[venin]

I fucking hate it all… I hate myself… I hate my life… I hate every moment of it… I can't it anymore. This suffering. The torment. The insecurities. The fear. Shame. Pain. Lack of peace. Shortcomings. Failures. The FUTILITY of EVERYTHINGGGGGGG

AND IT FUCKING KILLS ME SEING PEOPLE WHO CAN LIVE, like just fucking live, enjoy themselves, their lives, careers, hobbies……


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[lavendermeadows]

I hear you…. Same

 

[Holu]

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My thoughts exactly

 

[.seethroughme.]

Same here, waking up every morning is torture - with everyone starting their normal days while I'm in complete turmoil. For me it causes the strongest CTB feelings in my day.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it really can be so torturous feeling trapped here, I despise existence and all the harm it causes, I see it as being something so incredibly dreadful having the ability to suffer endlessly.

 

[Gaga786]

Yep, thats my life. Just waiting to rot while everyone else enjoy their lives, although existence could be very unbearable for them in the future.So there's that, but I think those with good childhoods can handle the pain this life brings

 

[venin]

Yep, thats my life. Just waiting to rot while everyone else enjoy their lives, although existence could be very unbearable for them in the future.So there's that, but I think those with good childhoods can handle the pain this life brings

I think you're right

 

[Gaga786]

I think you're right

Yeah, I noticed this in my life. Those with very minimal trauma or had a healthy upbringing have a stronger base which helps them challenge any obstacles they face in life whether it's the death of someone or something else. Despite any challenges, they are able to put a smile on their faces and endure any suffering like a champ

 

[venin]

Yeah, I noticed this in my life. Those with very minimal trauma or had a healthy upbringing have a stronger base which helps them challenge any obstacles they face in life whether it's the death of someone or something else. Despite any challenges, they are able to put a smile on their faces and endure any suffering like a champ

Apparently it's just a matter of luck

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I see the girl i love enjoy fucking life on social while i want to ctb, just because of bad parents

 

[venin]

I see the girl i love enjoy fucking life on social while i want to ctb, just because of bad parents

I'm really sorry about that…

 

[hopeisdead]

I fucking hate it all… I hate myself… I hate my life… I hate every moment of it… I can't it anymore. This suffering. The torment. The insecurities. The fear. Shame. Pain. Lack of peace. Shortcomings. Failures. The FUTILITY of EVERYTHINGGGGGGG

AND IT FUCKING KILLS ME SEING PEOPLE WHO CAN LIVE, like just fucking live, enjoy themselves, their lives, careers, hobbies……


FFFFUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKP

Same here. People just going about their days...walking their dogs, driving to and from work, working, being happy, having a grand old time just living every day...meanwhile my insides are eternally screaming. I can't stand it.

 

[venin]

Same here. People just going about their days...walking their dogs, driving to and from work, working, being happy, having a grand old time just living every day...meanwhile my insides are eternally screaming. I can't stand it.

So fucking unfair…

 

[hopeisdead]

So fucking unfair…

It is. If nothing else you're not alone in how you feel. Right now on top of everything else I feel like I'm getting sick (sore throat, nausea). Like, why do things ALWAYS have to get worse? Why?

 

[venin]

It is. If nothing else you're not alone in how you feel. Right now on top of everything else I feel like I'm getting sick (sore throat, nausea). Like, why do things ALWAYS have to get worse? Why?

I'm still tryin'a figure out what the fuck is up with this planet.

 

[John Ryder]

I'm still tryin'a figure out what the fuck is up with this planet.

Well in the meantime just crank the Misfits and pee on a bible

 

[anhedonicNfoggy]

Same here. It kills me seeing people who have others who care about them, pay attention to them, respond to them, see good qualities in them.

 

[hopeisdead]

I'm still tryin'a figure out what the fuck is up with this planet.

I know, right? Smh

 

[venin]

Well in the meantime just crank the Misfits and pee on a bible

That might just work

 

[hopeisdead]

Well in the meantime just crank the Misfits and pee on a bible

Lol you're awesome

 

[venin]

Same here. It kills me seeing people who have others who care about them, pay attention to them, respond to them, see good qualities in them.

It's even worse when you know they're pieces of shit and see them having it al… I'd love to nuke the whole planet then

 

[John Ryder]

That might just work

*Excellent, Smithers gif*

 

[parader]

i can't help but think that people who can enjoy life and lead successful careers and everything are literally a different type of breed
it's like there's something inherently unalike and it bothers me so much

 

[hopeisdead]

i can't help but think that people who can enjoy life and lead successful careers and everything are literally a different type of breed
it's like there's something inherently unalike and it bothers me so much

YES! 100%!

 

[Sweet Tart]

I fucking hate it all, too. So tired of struggling to survive in an indifferent world. I don't care if other people can be happy, tho. They are unknowable to me. I don't fault them for their situations or myself for mine. I only fault the abusers and exploiters in this world for being monsters and destroying lives.

 

[parader]

YES! 100%!

there's absolutely no way i'm cut out from the same cloth as someone who looks at this world and really goes "yeah i can make a profit out of it to buy a led lamp and simulate sunshine on my skin in rainy mornings"