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Uisonnasgeneta
New Member
- Feb 15, 2021
- 4
Two times a week, maybe more, I remember that life is incredibly painful. That I'm suffering way too frequently for it to be worth it. That I'm probably already dead and that ctb would just align who I am with what I experience.
But then, it gets 'better'. I decieve myself in thinking that I have a future. That I'll marry my gf and that everything will be fine. It feels exhilarating.
Repeat ad nauseam.
Psychiatrist don't care to help me since most time I'm 'ok'. And if they want to help me they give me medications that make me gain weight, knowing full well I have an ED.
Next time I'll get on this rollercoaster I'll ctb effectively. I have everything I need, I think. Just need to finish the letter to some people.
But then, it gets 'better'. I decieve myself in thinking that I have a future. That I'll marry my gf and that everything will be fine. It feels exhilarating.
Repeat ad nauseam.
Psychiatrist don't care to help me since most time I'm 'ok'. And if they want to help me they give me medications that make me gain weight, knowing full well I have an ED.
Next time I'll get on this rollercoaster I'll ctb effectively. I have everything I need, I think. Just need to finish the letter to some people.