Venting I hate being autistic.

[dontknowanything]

This is my first thread on this website, but I've lurked a good while here. I just wanted to vent about my life as a high functioning autist with dying parents.

I'm autistic, have 0 friends, and I regret my existence. I have no friends, nobody texts or calls, and a lot of the time I have nobody to talk to. I wish there was a cure for high functioning autism. I struggle heavily to make connections with people. I've just been living life feeling extremely disconnected from everybody else. I stay in my house all the time, because I never get invited anywhere. I feel like my ability to connect with people has become even worse over time. My parents are fucking dying, and they only have me. I feel sorry for my parents, because they got an autistic retarded son like me. I feel constantly anxious and worried in life. I have parents who are slowly dying because of their health issues, and I will be homeless after they die. I'm jobless, no college degree, and I have 0 friends. I will be on the streets after my parents die, my life is a downward spiral, and I would like to save myself from any more future misery. I've already ordered 2 bottles of N from D, and I will take all of it as soon as my parents die. I literally cannot survive in this world without my parents supporting me. I used all the saved up money I had in crypto to buy some N. I sent my crypto to the legit D, and I will be waiting for my N to come. I just pray my N comes fast so I can leave this shitty existence quickly. I'm out after my parents are out.

 

[CommitSudoku]

I'm sorry about your parents and how much you've suffered in life. It's really hard to live life burdened with so much. Welcome to this site though and I hope it can perhaps offer a bit of reprieve or company. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.

 

[BrokenBliss]

But again with the mass murderer.

 

[Shu]

But again with the mass murderer.

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[BrokenBliss]

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[FuneralCry]

That sounds awful what you are going through, I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. I hope you find relief from your pain in whatever happens.

 

[Maaizr]

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no one cares

 

[BrokenBliss]

no one cares

Apparently.

This is my first thread on this website, but I've lurked a good while here. I just wanted to vent about my life as a high functioning autist with dying parents.

I'm autistic, have 0 friends, and I regret my existence. I have no friends, nobody texts or calls, and a lot of the time I have nobody to talk to. I wish there was a cure for high functioning autism. I struggle heavily to make connections with people. I've just been living life feeling extremely disconnected from everybody else. I stay in my house all the time, because I never get invited anywhere. I feel like my ability to connect with people has become even worse over time. My parents are fucking dying, and they only have me. I feel sorry for my parents, because they got an autistic retarded son like me. I feel constantly anxious and worried in life. I have parents who are slowly dying because of their health issues, and I will be homeless after they die. I'm jobless, no college degree, and I have 0 friends. I will be on the streets after my parents die, my life is a downward spiral, and I would like to save myself from any more future misery. I've already ordered 2 bottles of N from D, and I will take all of it as soon as my parents die. I literally cannot survive in this world without my parents supporting me. I used all the saved up money I had in crypto to buy some N. I sent my crypto to the legit D, and I will be waiting for my N to come. I just pray my N comes fast so I can leave this shitty existence quickly. I'm out after my parents are out.

May I ask a question? If things could improve for you, would you want to give life a try?