I hate being a woman...

[OverTheRainbow]

Almost every night I walk home alone at uni I get creeps trying to follow me home or ask if I have a boyfriend. I can never feel safe on the streets... A few close guy friends of mine (not all, a few) have stopped talking to me because I wasn't interested in them sexually.. They completely pushed me out of their circle and talk about me like I'm a horrible person. I'm terrified of intimacy because of all the sexual abuse I had to deal with growing up. I know that whoever I be with will have to deal with my trauma and baggage..

I realize I may sound like I see myself like I'm irresistible. That's not the case at all... I'm pretty fucking gross. I just wish people could actually be my friends... my family abandoned me and now it feels like loads of people abandon me just because I don't give them what I want... I'm not saying I want to be a man, but I hate being a woman so much... I just want to feel accepted...

 

[Redt2go]

I can relate :/

 

[Macc Lad]

so sorry to hear that......i doubt your "pretty fucking gross".......i really feel for you x

 

[Dead beat dad]

If people cannot accept you for who you are then you probably don't need them in your life.
Woman or not there are people who will try and make advantage of you for their own gain.
Easy for me to say, but you are not the abuse you suffered and it is understandable if you struggle to connect, if the people in your life are only after one thing then chuck them and be who you want.
Good luck
DBD

 

[Roberto]

I'm sorry. Sometimes I feel it is difficult for me to be a friend of a woman. I'm not used to be with them. So, I try to hang on any person is around me to try to see if she wants to be my girlfriend.
For a pair of years I changed my mind. I don't want any relationship. I just want to be alone.
I'm sorry that persons like me are creating damage to woman like you.
I wish I had words with a solution. I don't know what to do about it. Sometimes I feel good for not being a woman. I would not want any to stalk me, to say sex words, or the like. Being ugly and male has its advantages.
I hope you will find a solution that respects your desires of how you want to be or live.
Despite it, I was sexually abused when I was a kid.
I'm sorry.

 

[Donewith_]

i can understand. Feel sorry for you.

 

[noonetoo]

Like taking the words right out of my thoughts, can so relate to you.

Trouble making friends, trouble with men, always only being taken advantage of, trouble with family. It's like why bother living if we can't fit in anywhere.

I constantly have to live in fear. Always locking my car doors when I get in. Always having to look behind me, don't let people stand behind me. If I'm in a line, I turn sideways. Little things like that. Family excludes and is always disrespectful. No friends.

It honestly sucks being weak. Even born at all.
I'm sorry you have been hurt so much.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Almost every night I walk home alone at uni I get creeps trying to follow me home or ask if I have a boyfriend. I can never feel safe on the streets... A few close guy friends of mine (not all, a few) have stopped talking to me because I wasn't interested in them sexually.. They completely pushed me out of their circle and talk about me like I'm a horrible person. I'm terrified of intimacy because of all the sexual abuse I had to deal with growing up. I know that whoever I be with will have to deal with my trauma and baggage..

I realize I may sound like I see myself like I'm irresistible. That's not the case at all... I'm pretty fucking gross. I just wish people could actually be my friends... my family abandoned me and now it feels like loads of people abandon me just because I don't give them what I want... I'm not saying I want to be a man, but I hate being a woman so much... I just want to feel accepted...

You should try some psychedelics to help you get over your emotional trauma, like shrooms. Other than that I wish I was a women. Women have a lot of the power in the free world even more so than men IMO. They control sex, family, and finances.

 

[Roberto]

I'm sure you tried. But have you tried to join a group of people with a hobby? A book lecture meeting, to go to bike, or any sport (volleyball, etc), chess ...

Like taking the words right out of my thoughts, can so relate to you.

Trouble making friends, trouble with men, always only being taken advantage of, trouble with family. It's like why bother living if we can't fit in anywhere.

I constantly have to live in fear. Always locking my car doors when I get in. Always having to look behind me, don't let people stand behind me. If I'm in a line, I turn sideways. Little things like that. Family excludes and is always disrespectful. No friends.

It honestly sucks being weak. Even born at all.
I'm sorry you have been hurt so much.

May be it would give you more confidence if you learned judo, or any kind of martial arts.

 

[21Neberg]

@OverTheRainbow @Redt2go I am so sorry for both of you. Humans can be such pieces of shit. Also, I hope both of you got/will get help to deal with the abuse because secual abuse is one of the worst things on the planet and both of you don't deserve that suffering.

 

[Onomotopoeia]

This is one of those things that I expect a man cannot truly understand. As such I wont make any attempt to pretend to. Not all men are jerks though and finding one who is not to walk you home is a super good deterrent to those things. Also as someone else mentioned martial arts are super good for the soul and may help boost your confidence. Good luck

 

[DepressionsAHo]

Almost every night I walk home alone at uni I get creeps trying to follow me home or ask if I have a boyfriend. I can never feel safe on the streets... A few close guy friends of mine (not all, a few) have stopped talking to me because I wasn't interested in them sexually.. They completely pushed me out of their circle and talk about me like I'm a horrible person. I'm terrified of intimacy because of all the sexual abuse I had to deal with growing up. I know that whoever I be with will have to deal with my trauma and baggage..

I realize I may sound like I see myself like I'm irresistible. That's not the case at all... I'm pretty fucking gross. I just wish people could actually be my friends... my family abandoned me and now it feels like loads of people abandon me just because I don't give them what I want... I'm not saying I want to be a man, but I hate being a woman so much... I just want to feel accepted...

Lol yes. I learned young that almost no men just wanna be my friend. I got tricked into it numerous times when I was a youngster due to my dumb ass believing someone could just objectively like me. After a few went-to-shitters I tell nearly every dude to go away

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

I probably have no place to say anything because I'm a male but I've been outcasted by many dudes just because I wasn't crazy about sex or into the mancave shit such as football. It sucks being an dude too.

 

[Titania]

I feel like being a woman isn't the issue rather people suck. And if they want something out of you, they aren't real friends really. Same goes with dating. This sounds cliche but real friends come to you when you least expect it. I found some real friends in college even though now they live far away from me now. I also dealt with child sexual abuse and what helped was talking about it and staying connected to people. Still battling with it everyday, but stuff like that takes time.

 

[bruisedtorso]

I feel this... I live in a very rough part of England and walking around at night isn't really an option, unless i want to get started on or intimidated. I hate this world so much..

 

[letmeseethedeath]

Almost every night I walk home alone at uni I get creeps trying to follow me home or ask if I have a boyfriend. I can never feel safe on the streets... A few close guy friends of mine (not all, a few) have stopped talking to me because I wasn't interested in them sexually.. They completely pushed me out of their circle and talk about me like I'm a horrible person. I'm terrified of intimacy because of all the sexual abuse I had to deal with growing up. I know that whoever I be with will have to deal with my trauma and baggage..

I realize I may sound like I see myself like I'm irresistible. That's not the case at all... I'm pretty fucking gross. I just wish people could actually be my friends... my family abandoned me and now it feels like loads of people abandon me just because I don't give them what I want... I'm not saying I want to be a man, but I hate being a woman so much... I just want to feel accepted...

i feel you so bad, also i wanna be a man.. i've been sexually abused by a man because i am what i am. i'm gender disphoryc. i'm always lonely because of this but i don't care. at least i'll die anyway

 

[noonetoo]

I'm sure you tried. But have you tried to join a group of people with a hobby? A book lecture meeting, to go to bike, or any sport (volleyball, etc), chess ...


May be it would give you more confidence if you learned judo, or any kind of martial arts.

Have done the hobby thing. But having social anxiety, I usually back out and fear rejection. The few times I've actually attended, it was easy to feel invisible and feel like you're not wanted around. People can sometimes be unwelcoming.
As far as martial arts, that can be expensive. And regardless of skills, men tend to have more strength. I wouldn't go injecting myself with testosterone either.
But thank you for your suggestions. At least here, I can feel common feelings with people. I've already encountered the not so friendly ones but eventually my overthinking will let it pass.

 

[Roberto]

Have done the hobby thing. But having social anxiety, I usually back out and fear rejection. The few times I've actually attended, it was easy to feel invisible and feel like you're not wanted around. People can sometimes be unwelcoming.
As far as martial arts, that can be expensive. And regardless of skills, men tend to have more strength. I wouldn't go injecting myself with testosterone either.
But thank you for your suggestions. At least here, I can feel common feelings with people. I've already encountered the not so friendly ones but eventually my overthinking will let it pass.

I also fear rejection. I think of myself as a unbearable. I try to do the common things like going to the course, buy things to eat and the like. But I avoid any kind of commitment with anybody.

 

[dmoroden]

dont hate being a woman! it seems like you live in a place where predominates stupid people... (without wanting to offense)
there are lots of places with low discrimination levels... havent you thought on move from where you are? i now its not easy and no everyone has the chance... but maybe if you have it... and want it... go for it!

And again i feel the need to say : Dont hate being a woman!!! aim that hate to those nobrain idiots that just thinks with the wrong head!

Send you a big hug (if you want it) and hope you find a way to feel safe soon! maybe a blackjack on your purse(? ^^

 

[GeorgeJL]

The ugly truth: men are pigs.

There should be a law allowing ladys to kick creeps straight in the fucking nuts, until they puke them out of their hole.

This is beyond trolling this is just straight up hateful.

 

[Psilo]

No mercy for creeps!

 

[OverTheRainbow]

Not all men are creeps. I don't want people to think that's what I'm saying.

 

[Psilo]

Not all men are creeps. I don't want people to think that's what I'm saying.

I don't think I am.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I don't think I am.

Hum when you said "The ugly truth: men are pigs." That statement says it all. You didn't say "The ugly truth: creepy men are pigs." You said "The ugly truth: men are pigs." If this forum doesn't give you a warning then they are sexist.

 

[Psilo]

Hum when you said "The ugly truth: men are pigs." That statement says it all. You didn't "The ugly truth: creepy men are pigs." You said "The ugly truth: men are pigs." If this forum doesn't give you a warning then they are sexist.

Don't overanalyse dude, you know exactly what I meant.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Don't overanalyse dude, you know exactly what I meant.

No actually I was thinking very clearly, because there are plenty of third wave feminists in this day that hate men. I've seen feminist professors straight up man hating in their classrooms and this is somehow now acceptable for women to hate men even at university level. It's appalling. So be very careful with your words when talking about men like that, because many men are now starting to wake up to toxic feminism.

 

[Psilo]

No actually I was thinking very clearly, because there are plenty of third wave feminists in this day that hate men. I've seen feminist professors straight up man hating in their classrooms and this is somehow now acceptable for women to hate men even at university level. It's appalling. So be very careful with your words when talking about men like that, because many men are now starting to wake up to toxic feminism.

I'm a man, so to say, a manpig .

But the question is: what kind of a pig are you?
Are you like Babe or more like a Harvey Weinstein kind of a pig?

That's the point, nature made us that way.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I'm a man, so to say, a manpig .

But the question is: what kind of a pig are you?
Are you like Babe or more like a Harvey Weinstein kind of a pig?

That's the point, nature made us that way.

Without men women would still be washing clothes with their hands. OK maybe maybe not but you get my point which is that men have built society for the most part. They do most of the infrastructure jobs and have made most of the inventions. IDK what your talking about.

 

[interim]

Well, this is really what the feminism asked for - free sexual market. Men beg for sex... In the past, you just had to accept one "offer", put a ring, and end it... Imagine what it is for a man today - to strike again and again, be called "creeper", every time his looks, timing and charisma are just not good enough... Actually a lot of men are forced to become creepers, since like you say - you know a girl, you are friends, have common interest. But she can't perceive you as anything else, and you just destroy a friendship... So you must "hit" strangers, at least the rejection doesn't hurt so much. In a feminist society, if you hate it as a woman, you will be in the hell as a man...

 

[OverTheRainbow]

I don't think people are forced into being creepers. No matter your gender there's points in your life where you don't get what you want. You may work very hard and you may think you deserve it, but that doesn't matter. That's how it is. When you experience this, you're then met with a crossroad that determines the kind of person you are. While it sucks you can't have what you want, that doesn't give one the right to act out. Guys have bullied me because I'm not sexually interested in them. They've purposely gone out of their way to make sure I'm excluded. Girls have also done the same because a guy they like has been seen to be interested in me (that sounds a little up myself, I don't really think they did like me, some girls just read too much into interactions). People have sexually harassed me, joked about raping me, violently bullied me and all sorts of sick shit. Bitterness like that is unacceptable in my opinion. This forum proves how many people want to kill themselves and if people go around acting out of jealousy or bitter nature then they're just contributing to the problem imo.