Blue Rose
Student
- Feb 6, 2021
- 156
Always I have been taught that it is Bad for myself to get along with those whom you had liked only.
Always I have been taught that even you feel bad or angry or sad,
You Should liseten to everything, everyone to the end.
Especially, my mother had taught me them often, directly. I started to get a kind of obsession.
I knew that I was the master of my destiny, but I had to feel serious anxiety and guilty at once.
Since I joined in SS on Feb 7th and for a one week, I was very satistied with everything.
I was loved and many members supported me.
But two or three users started to dislike me for my vent in the general chat room.
And I had some serious desputes over two users even, recently.
I went downhearted and felt guilty.
Usually I fear to be cricised by others especially in my fault, mistake, and poor English.
Usually I fear to break peace of the place where I am
And good terms which I keep with my whole heart
With my expression of thought or emotion.
So I used to suppress my anger, sadness, and some thoughts until I passed my limit.
Of course, I know I am dreaming of the impossible thing. It is obviously impossible.
But some events that I had underwent in a few weeks made me guilty, sad, and downhearted.
Always I have been taught that even you feel bad or angry or sad,
You Should liseten to everything, everyone to the end.
Especially, my mother had taught me them often, directly. I started to get a kind of obsession.
I knew that I was the master of my destiny, but I had to feel serious anxiety and guilty at once.
Since I joined in SS on Feb 7th and for a one week, I was very satistied with everything.
I was loved and many members supported me.
But two or three users started to dislike me for my vent in the general chat room.
And I had some serious desputes over two users even, recently.
I went downhearted and felt guilty.
Usually I fear to be cricised by others especially in my fault, mistake, and poor English.
Usually I fear to break peace of the place where I am
And good terms which I keep with my whole heart
With my expression of thought or emotion.
So I used to suppress my anger, sadness, and some thoughts until I passed my limit.
Of course, I know I am dreaming of the impossible thing. It is obviously impossible.
But some events that I had underwent in a few weeks made me guilty, sad, and downhearted.
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